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masakit pag ipagtabuyan ka ng mahal mo papalayo sa'yo ..

hindi mo alam kung ano ang gagawin ..
kung ano ang dahilan ..
kung ano ang dapat isipin ..

at higit sa lahat,

hindi mo alam kung TAMA pa bang mahalin siya ..
dahil naisip mong SOBRA na. :'(

` i made this ..

DONT READ

dili ko ganahan sa ako day kay lechon kaayo. as in LECHE. waa. sorry i can't control myself. ngano imo man gyud ko ipaasa hah? ngano in-ana man? ngano HA? gi-unsa taka? samok man sad kau ko oi. ngano sa tanan guys sa world, ikaw man gyud ang gipa ila-ila sko? i want a HAPPY life. not a MISERABLE one. yeah,i admit .. i still LOVE YOU. but what you're showing to me isn't right. well, wla man pud ko karapatan na mag control sa imong life. ok. WTE. then, SORRY kau hah kung giaabot pko sa imong life. kay ako pud, nagSISI gyud ko. kabalo ko nasakitan taka, SORRY hah. tao rako. and uh,unta. na feel pud nmo nga NASAKITAN ko. wala lng. i-feel lang. mao ra. ambot. i don't want you to read this because for sure, you will react. mao ra. gusto ko muhilak, but my tears WON'T fall eh. siguro na feel na niya nga dili na jud ka WORTH na hilakan. well, tama pud ako eyes. gikapoy naman gud ko .. pro uh,don't think nga ikaw ang SALA hah, just think that it's my PROBLEM. ako ang problema dre DILI IKAW. ok? kanus-a paba nko ka malimtan? nga as in mu fade na akong feelings sa imo? kay murag feeling nko, over na as in OVER. fine,ate fibe's right. unsa to ate? TIME HEALS? murag in-ana to .. so i believe na mawala ra lge ni. na sobraan lng cguro ko ka inlove sa imo? sakto bana? naah. well. OK na. sakto na ni kay OA na kau. ambot, sorry hah. kung wla ka kasabot.

WLA KOY LALAKE. DLI KO FLIRT. DLI KO IN-ANA. DECENTE KO NGA TAO KABALO KO KUNG ASA KO MULUGAR.
so mao rana. ( tawa sko hah HEHE)

BYYYYYYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

12/12/07

` a fine and NORMAL day :)

haha. i was really confused in the first place on what to WEAR. darn. it took me, for about, uh? 1 hour and 15 mins? .. to choose what will i wear. and yeah, finally. it turn out to be FINE. i know, some people would think i'm a COLLEGE student. nyah. DARN. it's bad. haha. :)

we started to practice for our caroling contest and i hope everything will turn out to be FINE. it seems like we lack UNITY. and it is a very NEW thing for me. we're not like that before. it's just that, some of my classmates would always CONTRADICT with some other things. and we should work TOGETHER for a FAIR practices. nyaah. :)

i'm also uhh? LOADED? nyah. YEAH. so many things to do then. PROJECTS, ASSIGNMENTS, SPECIAL QUIZZES, MUSICALE PLAY, CAROLING CONTESTS, GIFTS, OUTFIT, WEDDING PRACTICES, and darn .. lovelife? haha. NO,NO. i shouldn't think of it, as of now .. it seems like PEOPLE are BUSY with their own business. :)

i'm excited to answer ate fibe's survey in FS. haha. and oh yeah, JIM is Nicholas in our musicale play, and i'm ALICE. we're good friends and i always understand him. i love the story. so much. so HAPPY to work with Jim, Maridel, and Ivan and also to Kuya Jules and to OTHERS. haha. i'm having fun even though, i can't stop worrying ABOUT MYSELF. haha. :)

they will arrive tomorrow. ate Lexie and tita Duls. :) yeyeah. i'll be one of the pips who'll fetch them. WE WILL NOT GO TO SCHOOL TOMORROW. SSSH. strike eh. haha. :)

i'm also happy for i was able to make some uh, quotes? yeah. haha. here are they:

`` sometimes, i want to be alone. for me to remember all the fun things that had happened in the past. but later, i realized, it's so wrong to REMINISCE, most especially if you already knew that, those memories will not be back again ..

`` i gave a big part of my heart to him. but it seems like he doesn't notice it and it hurts to know that he couldn't give it back to me in return ..

`` when i saw you, and you seem so busy and HAPPY. that completes the reason for me to stop expecting. i know you'll NEVER be back in my heart, where you used to be ..

`` he always say, he's still there. but i can't even FEEL his presence. though, seein' him HAPPY, fill the emptiness of my heart ..

`` a simple HELLO means a lot to me, most especially if you're the sender. so, take care 'coz i ALWAYS care.

`` i don't know why i'm like this,
i don't know why you are like that,
i don't know why those things happen,
the only thing i know is that, I LOVE YOU.

~ nyah. that's all. i hope it's OK and GOOD to hear? nyah. haha. :)

ok nyah. i need to GO. i need to make my PROJECT first. BYEBYE. :P

12/11/07

` rainy day..

rain fell AGAIN from the skies. and it made my rubber shoes to get DIRTY. darn. anyhoo, i ENJOYED my day. bein with my friends and bein with EVERYONE. haha. it was a GOOD day to start of, because i received a msg from him. but duh, it isn't that impt. well, ok. uh, i'm just happy. :)

MATH. my quiz score is 40/45. nyaah. i'm kinda happy for it .. :)

PHYSICS and ENGLISH (time). i wanna sleep. i'm sleepy that times and i don't understand some of the lessons in English. but that's alright, i got 47/50 in our quiz. nyaah. TSAMBA lang yun. :)

CHEM. it was quite fun, guessing ELEMENTS and the like. nyaah. Mrs. Manus is really a GOOD teacher. :)

PE. i was OUTSIDE the room when PE time strikes. i wasn't able to wear my casual attire because i didn't brought any. :)

FILIPINO. yaaho. no class. :)

i'm quite excited for the upcoming musicale play this Dec18, i'm ALICE and i'm one of the main characters. i hope it will be FUN to bond with my co-playmates. haha. :)

nyaah. i saw him in the taxi. akong mata gyud. grabe na. toing. :)

i'm really feeling LAZY this times. as in. but still HAPPY, no class on THURSDAY. yey.

byebye. mwuah. :P

12/10/07

` bored.boring.BOREDOM.

nyaah. today. i just stayed at home for the WHOLE DAY. as in, yeah, WHOLE DAY. i never had a chance to GO OUT and see my neighbors or whatever. my stupid LAZY ass doesn't want to MOVE that much, because i have my PERIOD. yeah, it's so DARN. i hate it. but at least, it came before the wedding of my tita. and ARF, it's coming near. i'm so excited, i just can't hide it. haha.

this thursday, tita dulce and ate lexie will be coming back here. GEE, i wanna see them both, and i'm so excited to BOND with my BEYB [ lexie ]. that's what we call each other. haha. i so miss them.

oh, tomorrow's another day. another day of LESSONS, of INTRIGUES, of NUMBERS, LETTERS and ofcourse, CRUSHES. haha. toing. btw, i'm so TIRED. i don't want to go to school na. i wanna spend my vacation then. haha. :)

i'm so happy, mom allowed me to join KPA this summer. nyoinks. i'll consult Kaye first para dungan mi. hehe. i just love the KPA people. i want to bond with them and ofcourse, to learn new DANCES. haha. i so love dancing, and i also MISS dancing. huhu. it's been awhile since i last DANCED and showed what i got in the dance floor.HAHA. WTE.

ok.ok. i hope our teachers will give us the time to practice for our upcoming CAROLING CONTEST. i hope the classes will be IRREGULAR and everything. :)

darn. the teacher's day will be on DEC17. it's so MATAGAL ah. as in. but it's okay, at least we willn't have CLASSES that day again. YAHHO. toingks. :)

simbang gabi days is coming. i'm confused on how to BUDGET my time coz we still need to go to school in some of the days in simbang gabi. darn. dili nalang kaha mi matulog ba? nyaah.

and NOW, the end is near and so i face the final curtain. BLABLA. HAHAHA.

btw, anyhoo, would like to thank ATE FIBE for the quotes she has given me. it's more than 1000 i think. i'm enjoying reading those quotes. haha. toingks. and also to KUYA HENRY for the bg and banner and for editing my pixes, having sum ROSY CHEEKS then. haha. i SO LOVE IT. thanks to the both of you. you're such a nice KUYA AND ATE to me. char. hehe. MWUAH. :)

i miss you.oyeah. YOU.ok. bye. haha. :)

QUOTES

this aren't just an ordinary quotes, i tell you, i can RELATE. darn. credits to Ate Fibz. thanks for sharing. :)

` it's hard to go on living while loving someone secretly,

it's hard to see the one you love so happy with someone else.

but you know,

what's the most painful thing about hiding love?

IT NEVER FADES.

` i learned to love "someone" with all my life,

but there came a point when i got tired,

not of loving but of sacrificing all that i have.

then a thought came to my mind,

i have given EVERYTHING but have received nothing but

PAIN & TEARS in return.

is this enough to prove that i really love that person?

or is it a sign telling me to STOP sacrificing,

and learn to love myself a little more?

haay. :')

12/9/07

` coco bay to the rescue :)

when i woke up at around 7 or 8, i wasn't that excited to swim and visit again CocoBay. but then, when time passes by, i was really uh, craving for the place. it was darn crazy but i really wore my SEXIEST shorts. well, i wasn't shy at all, because i know it fits me. darn. haha. WTE. :)

it was so happy to be with my cousins again, bond and swim with them. we were really like crazy in the pool. and my bro is really IRRITATING. so much. darn. but it's ok, i still enjoyed. nyaah. i really enjoyed taking some pictures using Tito Mic's digicam and so as our digicam. but, our digicam was acting like a KJ. so darn. then, afterwards, the rain fell from the sky and it was really nice watching it on the sea. REALLY. it's good for lovers. haha. i told ate fibz about that, i text her. :)

and now, i'm really TIRED. but i can't sleep. nyaah. i just finished transferring the pixes here in the pc to the CD. because our PC will be reformat tomorrow. and yeah, BYEBYE files. :)

ok.ok. i'm confused with my lovelife. it's DARN. but i shouldn't mind it. I SHOULDN'T.

nyah. i'll be checking my FS now. BUH-BYE. :)