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it has been raining outside .. and i felt the cold air passing by my skin. haha. naunsa! uh, wla lang. while it`s raining, i remembered a LOT of things. which are really not ordinary. it signifies a lot of meanings and everything .. i just miss those days then. i hope it will be back but it`s better if it willn`t come back again, well, it WILL`NT be. i know. it`s the past, and i still don`t know what`s with my future .. nyah. sorry kung nosebleed mo sa akong gipangyaw2 karon. hehe. lisod na kau mag tell about ani nah.. darn! .. and please DON`T mind the picture in my blog. kanang you know nah.. hehe. li lang nko mapigilan, and KEBS sa mga nakakita. uh.. mali pala ang date ana, na happen na siya ato Jan18 and gibutang nko is 19. sensen. li na nako ma utro pa kay kung i edit nko as in NOW, intrigahon nasad ko ni mama. haha. maybe next weekend. tehee. hmn, classes na ugma .. and darn! .. i haven`t answered one of my assignments then. after writing here mag answer nko promise. and mag study nko. hehe. i wasn`t texting since yesterday .. murag nawad an ko ug gana sa akong fone. ambot nalang! uh.. mubalik ra cguro akong gana kung naay magtext [: .. waaah. kanus-a pa kaya?? haha. WTE. hmn.. i`m so happy, humana nko sa research prop namo, and i hope wla nai mali ani. DARN kau kung naa pa gyud. heeeee. gusto nko mahuman akong mga probleme. labaw na tong contest sa MASCUF, nakakapressure. promise! .. hehe. btw, cge lang. atleast, maka experience nko mag join ug contest with ate anna and sa lain pa gyud na place, dli country! hahaha .. my head is kinda aching with NO valid reason. nyah. and oh, i so love my BG in my exclusive acct in FS - PIGGY! .. cute kau ang baboy promise. hehe. saon! kanus-a pa kaya mahatag ni donat sko ang gift nya nga baboy .. nyah. hmn, btw. kabalo ko maskin dli gaingon ang uban nga abe nla akong "uyab" si donat. naunsa! buang namo?? haha .. btw, li tamo masisi, kay cge man pud mi ug uban. dli lang kami duha, pro naa pud si Juna oi. my bests. darn! bestfriends mi tulo that`s why cge mi ug uban .. and dli ako ug si donat ang naay something oi, cla ni BESTS. haha. MU cla and i`m their manager [atleast naay part]. hehe. nabuang nko. basta mao to .. aguy. kaila rba gyud ko sa mga tao nga gaduda. DARN! [: ..

btw, dli nko ni malimtan nga line, naay nag ingon sko ani :

"i will really help you. promise!"

wow. touch kau ko! hehe. hmnn. [: ..

btw, i need to go bloggie dearie. i need to finish my assignments. mwah! bbye dearie! [: ...

Bloody Broken

Up in the sky it is so clear...
But here within me I have a fear...
To think that someday, I know you’ll
be gone...
If I can’t accept, where should I run?…

The water is fine as I look upon the
river...
Wish that in love it will flow
forever...
Things that I thought stays in my
mind...
But neither one answer never will I
find…

Here in my eyes, tears roll down
again...
As the clouds in the sky pours a lot
of rain...
Where should I be if not on your
side?...
And how can I move on if it will only
hurt inside?…

I do feel much pain and in me it
kills...
Yet the love I know with you, here
remain still...
Before, we have had these special
mutual feelings...
It’s just that these days we have lost
this something…

There are so many words which I can
hardly say...
Coz I’m waiting for the chance to tell
you one day...
Yet time crashed my plans for it to be
revealed...
Coz you came up to me and left all
what you feel…

How could you left in the middle of
this scene?...
My world become so dizzy; losing time
while it spins...
I know that on that time you have
played your part...
But here’s one problem, you left my
heart BLOODY BROKEN apart!…

written by: Heneve Mae Magto
date: Jan. 17 & 19, 2008

A Favor of my Heart

Why can’t I say it when I look into
your eyes?...
I become frozen and speechless just
everytime I try...
You turn my voice off and always make
it blind...
Coz I loss every single word and just
could hardly find...

Now I want to tell you that you have
found the key...
That you found this heart in a hidden
place in me...
I just want to ask you to discover
myself more...
Before you take the steps for you to
open that door...

Show me that you’re sincere so that my
heart can see...
And prove that you truly do before
you’ll say you love me...
Coz if that feeling I’m asking has not
come out yet...
I’m just too afraid to know that
someday you may forget...

I know you don’t know, but I wish you
can feel...
And accept my broken heart, coz you’re
willing to heal...
I hope when that day comes, you won’t
say goodbye...
Coz we can keep things right, as long
as we’ll just try...

Written by: Heneve Mae Magto
date: Jan. 19, 2008

01.19.08

the SAM day! hehe. believe it or not, i saw him just this morning and i was really like CRAZY when i saw him .. DARN! he was really handsome and oh, i`m so speechles. haha. i was with JOY, and i told her to accompany me in buying CDs for the show in the afternoon .. like BOOM, destiny is really uh.. i don`t know. haha. i never thought there would be a show by Plaza Fair, oh i think, that was their anniv show? Idon`know, and i don`t care. haha. basta, their celebrity guests was SAM, and when i saw his name on the back-drops i feel like i`m gonna die! charlang. OA kau. hehe. btw, i was really excited. because for the long time of waiting to MEET him, to SEE him, and everything, karon lang nag COME TRUE. hehe. i don`t care if the people in kets find me too OA to see SAM. waaa. KEBS! they just don`t know what i`m feeling. hehe. i was like shouting all the time, and Joy and i was running like here and there naman, and like that. we`re really so CRAZY.. but that experience is one of the best [for sure] this year .. yahoo! GOOD start for the year then .. i`m so happy. waaaa. and yeah, JOY is like falling SLOWLY for sam. and ooopps, JOYENS, SORRY. he`s my boyfriend, in my DREAMS .. hahaha. wte. nyah.. and uh, thank GOD for guiding me all through out the show. i wasn`t nervous then. hehe .. but, nwala gyud ko bei. pro ok lang.. hehe. nabawi man sad nko .. and KEBS ko ba sa pips, i`m not perfect. OYEAH, i`m not, and uh, i mean WE`RE not. hehe. nfurnes, kuya geevey, kuya abdul & company were there .. and they were like enjoying the show. maski dali ra ang show .. hehe. DARN! i hate fs, i can`t view the private fotos in my exclusive account. really DARN! .. ma shock gyud mo kung kinsa tong naa sako private fotos. hahaha. nyah. it`s like quarter to 2am na, and i`m still wide awake .. nyah. i think. i need to go guys.. HAOSHUI. :-)

01.18.08

oyeah. i`m quite happy then, i talked to peggy this afternoon, and it was all about the PRES thingy. and uh, it made me confused AGAIN. as in, again. but i really think, VP is the best position for me. nyah. WTE. it feels good to talk to him, but at the same time NOT. i have heard a lot of things about him [NOTE: it isn`t good. promise] hmnn. i don`t know if it`s true. but whatever! it`s really DUH to think it all over again. anyway, nalain ko sa isa nko ka friend. i wont talk more about it. hmn. i have my gown na for prom, thanks to ate Jacklyn. she`s really nice,pretty WOMAN. hehe. hin2 kau. hmn. magkanta ko tomorrow sa SM, and i still dont know what to sing. its so duh then. haha. WTE. it already 11.45 [my time] and i`m so wide awake to find some songs fit for my voice for tomorrow. nyah. Godbless my performance! :-)

I hope everything`s gonna be okay.

The DONT`s

Mao ni ang dili dapat isulti sa mga GUYS sa ilang girlfriend:

• Never talk about your ex.
• Don`t say anything about the girl`s friends.
• Never express self pity and insecurities.
• Never use emotional blackmail.
• Never comment on other girls when you are with her.

- courtesy of Say Alonzo [Rush TV]

I just LOVE this :-)

..how does a girl forgets a love that overwhelmed her for a long time?....how does she carry the feeling when she still want to keep their love alive?....how does she forgets the love they had when all she's thinking, is how to bring it back?....how does she carry the heartache when it posses her every day??....how does she carry all the sorrows when it happened beacause the boy gave up?....how does she blame the situation when the boy left her with no other choice but to say goodbye?....how does she accept all these things when she havn't expected this to happen?....how does she believes the boy doesn't love her anymore when for her it was too far to happen??....how does she accept all of these desperation??....how does she endure the affliction and blues??....how does she carries her heart everyday when its now rotten?....how does she goes to sleep when she thought of not goin to it?....how does she wake up every morning and think of the misery again?....how does she plee to God to deliver her from the death-like heartache?....how does she sleeps and think of notwaking up?....how does she grief?....how does she carry the agony of her mind and heart??....how does she thinks when she doesn' want to think that she's still alive??....how does she feel when she doesn't want to feel her broken heart?....how does she looks when she doesn'twant to see anyhting?....how does she lives her life like that??....how does she endure these things when she knows the only cure of it was the love of the person who hurt her??....how does she hates him when the truth is, she loves him more and more everyday even if she knows he has already found someone else?....how does she miss his kiss??....his hugs??....and the feeling of belongingness when he embraces her tight?....how does she forgets his smile??....how does she forgets his "I LOVEYOU'S?"...."I MISS YOU'S?"....how does she forgets him whEn he said "YOU ARE THE GIRL OF MY LIFE"....how does she lives her life now??....now that he's gone....how does she believes on dreams of having him around??....how does she lets every throb in herheart remain?..

..eEei comm'on!!..

..HOW DOES A GIRL FORGETS WHEN HE MENT ALL OF HER LIFE AND DREAMS???!!!..

..the silliest thing ther is....she doesn't know how....and she doesn't even know how to take things easily....she loved him....and he ment all of her....she wanted to work things out coz she still believes on the love they once had....she thought they shared a life that was full of love....but then she realized WHAT THEY SHARED WAS AN EMPTY HOPE!!....she has no choice....tears are falling down her eyes..

..SHE CANT TAKE THESE ANYMORE..

..BUT HOW DOES SHE FORGETS??..

01.16.07

i`m kinda happy.. i saw him. char. hehe. wala lang, half sa iya body, sa likod ug sa kilid.. syang, i haven`t seen the SMILE. DARN! that`s what i`m looking sa iya. hehe. mag blush dayon ko.. bests bah! hahaha. oi, true si ate fibz, you CAN`T teach the heart. you really can`t!! nyah. okay fine, change topic. this is a happy day! as usual. hehe. happy kay happy si Ma`am Happy, nakapasar man gud xa. i`m so proud of her as well as our Stat ST, and to Ms. Allen also. hehe. maayo kaayo sila bei. char. hehe. pasensiya nalang mam kung saba ko (sometimes), ma perfect btaw sad nko inyo quiz. hahaha. CHAR. saon. baga gyud ko ug leps, pasayloa ko.. hehe. hmm. si donat nga "murag" uyab ni juna (akong bests) kay naghilanat. ambot naunsa to xa oi. naapektuhan siguro sa gamay nila nga LQ ni bests. saon.. kaluoy pud.hehe. concern kau ang JDK sa imo. char. hehe. it`s a "makalipong" day for me. kay mga 1pm sa hapon, kalit lang ko nalipong. ingon si bests ug si vincent kay nag linog daw! pro ang ingon sa uban kay WALA daw. darn! unsa man lugar to? hehe.. kami ra lugar naka bati ug kaanyag? aguy.. hehe. lalom na ni nga bisaya. saon! hehehe. btw, wala lng.. noli nga quiz tomorrow, shocks. kapoy kau ug basa. promise. hehe.. saon. hmn, 80/80 ko sa quiz sa chem. YEY! i`m so happy. nyah. 25/25 pud ko sa seatwork sa physics and sa kuan pud char, wla na oi. kato ra.hehe.. hmn, cge. i need to GO! bbye people! i love you blog!! :-)

01.15.07

hey guys! nag drop by lang ko here sa ako blog. i just want to say share "something" haha. wla lang. i`m currently so excited, nervous, afraid and happy, nyah. in short - mixed emotions. darn. i`m excited, because we`ll be going to Bukidnon this Jan31 for MASCUF, nyah. i will be joininh the duet competition and it made me feel so nervous everytime i`ll think about it. it`s my very first time to join some singing contests and i`ll be with Ate Annabelle, my new ate. hehe. ka duet nko xa. and uh, i know grabe ang expectation ni Sir Glenn sa amo, so uh, we will really do our best just for this event. hehe. pro lisod lang kay dli mag meet ang sked namo ni ate. she`s so loaded for the whole week, and murag every thursdays rami maka practice n the afternoon together with our coach cguro. nyah. that`s why, dli nko maka lunch together with the fernz kay tig practice na namo na sa office ni sir. DARN! how bad. i will surely miss my co-fernz. promise. mao ra baya na nga time na medyo mag bonding mi, tus, wla pa ko. nyah. hay! dapat mag bawi gyud ko sa ila. hehe. toinks. uh, btw. happy ko kay, chada kau ako pag study karon. hahaha. wla lang. it`s just that, i understand the lessons and it`s sum kinda like EASY for me to study the things. hehe. we will have a quiz in chem tomorrow and we`ll have a seatwork in physics (close notes!) hay, GOD help me. ikaw nalang ako pag-asa. nyah. btw, i know GOD will help me then. i miss friendster, and peggy pud. hehe. daghan kau ko question regarding sa iya, as in. saon nalang! sige lang, kabalo ko normal rani, char. hehe. irish is absent for almost two days now, wla jud ko idea kung ngano xa absent, promise. ainaker!! hmn, i really enjoyed Kayssa's "wannabe laptop" hehe. DARN. as in, notebook lang gud xa, tus naa pa pa click2 thingy. kalay man ni si Beyotch Kayssa oi. hahaha. saon! btw, wala lang. happy-go-lucky kau ko this days. nyah. i hope dli ko kasab-an ni mama, na maka change sa iya mind. hay. gusto baya kau ko mag join, pro thanks kay mama, depende ra daw sko. hehe. ambot nalang. excited nko! promise!! hmmnn. tito sal is coming sooon, and i`m so excited to meet him. hehe. kung kinsa si tito sal? mahibal-an rana ninyo, SOOONN. hehe. anyhoo, i wonder kinsa prme ga view sko blog nga as in gapataas ang ga viewers ani nga blog. waaah. wla man kau important ani or tsada nga thing sa blog nko oi. hehe. ambot. cge, i need to go. it`s 09:50pm [my time], and wla lang. i`ll text kuyapra. hehe. buhbye! :-)