Weird.

oo. weirdo kaayo nga feeling ai. AS IN. cge lng ug pump kalit ako heart ug HARD & like gkahadlok ko kng nganong in-ani. first time ni nahitabo sa ako ha. gosh. mabuang sad ko. =\ i hope wla koy heart problem or unsa bah. & i HOPE sad nga wlay nahitabo nga bad sa akong special someones. ainako. i hate this feeling! i super hate this. err.

i miss texting & like, mingawon gyud ko kay Kuya Pra. hehe. xa ra gyud prme akong ka text, and infurnes, magkasinabtanay pud mi. hehe. he`s my new kuya gwapo & like, maka open gyud ko sa iya. "thankyou kuya for bein there. as in, na touch ko. hehe." cge lng, mag load nko ugma. promise. :)

anyway. i`m so proud of myself as i was able to make two poems yesterday (APRIL 4, 2008). err. entitled: Wherefore Art Thou, Baby? & Memoirs. hehe. like, wla lng. i hope i could write more poems. hehe. i super love writing nah. nakaka challenge! :p

tita`s not here anymore. she`s in Manila now & like, wla lng. hehe. err. i hope she will be FINE there with tito Michael. uban rba unta ko sa iya kaya lng, wla nadayon kay wla naka prepare si mama sa money stuff. naah. XD

HAPPY NEW LAYOUT to my blog! :p hehe. atlast i have found some layouts for this nah. hehe. :p

today is the start of my diet & like, i`m eating OATS na instead of rice. obvious na kaayo nga nag gain ko ug weight bei. nangupong na akong dagway. letch kau. hehe. cge lng, i do believe. mugamay ra lge ko. :)

i`m so excited for Bohol escapade next month hopefully. wee. XD

so. okay. i hope he's fine. & like, ga exist pa kaha ko sa iyang life? err. that's the question i want you to answer.

i miss my friends nah. AS IN. =\

Memoirs

I can softly remember,
The times we were together.
Laughing, talking, & sitting beside each other.
Hoping that it’ll last forever.

You held my hands,
I held yours.
There was an intimate feeling b/w us.
A sudden caress I felt that bound us.

As you were looking at me,
All I’m thinking was we.
Though, I wonder,
If you’re thinking of she.
Later, I thought, “Then, Let it be.”

When you kissed my cheek,
I thought I was a chick.
Kissed by his lover w/c is not a geek.
And yeah, you made us clique.

I can’t forget when you said “I love you”,
I know & I believe, it’s true.
Later, my shyness grew,
As I was about to say “I love you too”.

And now,
We need to stop.
Even though it’s hard to crop,
The memoirs shouldn’t drop.
Baby, let’s make it to the top.

Written by:
Kisha Elouise B. Manla
April 4, 2008

Wherefore Art Thou, Baby?

I don’t understand such thing,
Which I always think of every morning.
I wanted to ask you if you really care,
But fear is surrounding me, I can’t really dare.

After all this time,
I still can’t assure if you’re sincere,
Your honesty I cannot hear.
Things are complicated,
Yet I’m always dedicated.

My mind decided to let you go,
But my heart said NO.
My heart & mind are racing.
Confusion is what I’m facing.

Those sweet memories I can’t forget,
Forever I will not regret.
Your smile, your voice, your everything,
That’s all I’ll be missing.

To others I’ll be invisible,
But in your eyes I’ll be divisible.
My love’s preserved,
And so it is reserved.

The truth is what I’m asking,
That’s what I’m always thinking.
Denying isn’t the right figure.
Honesty is the best gesture.

Baby, don’t change.
You, yourself, I cannot exchange.
You should know that you are a few,
That’s all I ask of you.

Treat me like before,
That’s what I always prefer.
I missed those times,
Wishing you can really be mine.

But, I wonder,
Wherefore art thou, baby?

Written by:
Kisha Elouise Manla
April 4, 2008

My Love Story

if someone would ask me about it, i don`t really know what to answer. :) it`s because, i can`t identify what state i`m in concerning that thing. some knows about my fanatical love life, some doesn`t know, & some doesn`t totally care about it. i already met a lot of guys in my life, since Nursery to Kinder to my Elementary years & presently, in my HS life. honestly, i like loads of guys. haha. LIKE, in a way that i admire them, either with their - looks, personality, talent, & etc. etc. but my heart fell with just one person, who i never thought, would be the love of my life. (the present & hopefully my future :p) NOTE: this guy i`m referring to isn`t my boyfriend. i don`t really have a boyfriend since birth, & uh, i`m really saying the truth. :) anyway, back with the main topic (the love of my life thing, haha). i met him through text (October 2006) & he have been my textmate for the remaining days in October `till December. ^__^ i never thought i would like him, because @ first, i really don`t like him. he`s like, super mahangin. mahangin in a way that, he feels like he have a big chance to replace my ka - MU that time (PJ). & like, i super hate it, since i LIKE PJ a lot. haha. then, things went well between the two of us. we always communicate that time, & like, we`re officially lovers. :) after some days or weeks i think, he confessed that he likes me. :p actually, before we were textmates, i noticed him always looking @ me. like, super strange look. but i can see through his eyes, that "he likes me!", really. we girls have something in us, which is really not RARE. we could read other guys`s mind by looking @ their eyes. wee. :) he said, he got my number through a b`card, & i believed with that thing until i found out the real origin on where he got my number. haha. he`s really funny. :p anyway, after how many weeks of texting him, i felt something which i never felt before. i still don`t know yet, but i referred it as "crush". :) then, i told him that i`ve got a crush on him, and it`s true. ^__^ still, i felt something super duper strange feeling, & i still couldn`t tell what that feeling is, since it was the first time i felt that certain feeling. then, after how many months passed, i knew what that feeling is - L O V E. really. until such time, i met him personally, & i talked with him & sat beside him & the like. XD for me, it was totally "kilig". since it was the very first time that i was with him. :) & that`s it. things went complicated (for me) when he was elected as one of the executive officers in SSC. (i won`t mention the exact position, it might give you a clue. haha) we lost communication, but we rarely see each other. since, we (irish & others) are also busy conducting COSOCRED`s thing - Ratsada `07. :) we were the organizers & SSC are the ones backing us up. so, like, we still see each other. a lot had happened after it. they were a lot of issues, which are really not a JOKE (For me). i heard that, he & my girl schoolmate are ON, i know you know what i mean. i was really shocked when i heard that thing, & i really can`t believe @ first. but since, we lost this thing, called - communication, i came to believe on what my best friends has said. it was really difficult to handle, & i was really affected with it. super affected. & then, after how many days, i saw him. O.o i don`t really want to see him that time, because i`m not yet ready to face him & talk to him. (it was difficult to pretend that time.) so, what i did was, i never talked to him, i never said HI to him, it was like super - deadma. i`m trying to focus with some Ratsada`s problems that time, but i really can`t stop thinking about him. then, he approached me. i was so afraid to talk to him, i was covered with fear. T_T i saw his eyes, super sad, you can see the sadness within him. he said `he wanted to talk to me`, and so i said `sure`. =\ he heard what news i got that time, and he explained to me all the things i didn`t know about them (he & the girl). he said, "it was not true", & he didn`t even court her. they were just PLAIN textmates, according to him. my mind was starting to get confused, on who to believe. it was really confusing, superbly. because of those confusions, i talked to the girl, personally. :) he didn`t know about this, & i don`t want him to know this thing. i asked the girl, of what`s really their status? & if they`re not really in a relationship, why did she announced that thing? (`coz according to my friends, the girl told them that he & her are officially in a relationship), so that`s it. the only thing the girl said to me, is this: "dili man gyud actually kami, ambot kung ngano na gigawas nga issue. sila raman gud ga buot-buot ug sturya". then, deep inside, i said - OKAY! and so after it, i didn`t bother to care about that thing. even though it`s left unanswered, i decided not to think about it anymore. because it`s ruining my life. :) & then after it, we STILL lost our communication. i wasn`t able to hold my emotions. so, i opened up my feelings to one of my ate`s in FS - ate Lalaine. i told her, that i felt like, he`s playing girls. that`s always the thing that keeps on pumping out of my mind. & then, UNEXPECTEDLY, he read what i wrote in ate Lalaine`s comments. (August 21, 2007) he then called me, he told me to explain everything about what he had read. & like, nothing goes out of my mouth. since, i`m super depressed that time. i tell you, that day was the worst day of my life. a lot of things changed after it. i became a "crying" girl, & i started to believe that - there`s no good happening in my life. T_T i`m really guilty, until now. thinking that i have hurt him a lot. a lot. a lot. but i can`t bring back the past anymore, because it`s done. :( after that incident, we haven`t talk for how many weeks. not months, since, i was able to approach him in the Intramurals Week. i know he was still hurt that time, but he is trying to keep it. ( i can see it in his eyes actually) after that, things went well. & i kept on saying sorry to him. but he always says that "okay rato oi." naah, i know it`s not okay & it will never be okay. :( i have then heard a lot of things "again" about him. different issues. different origins. different stories. & it was like, "aaaaah. i`m going crazy!" & the thought that would always come in my mind is - I need to move on. really. i attempted to move on, how many times, but none of it was successful. i even changed my number just to get rid of him. but still, he was able to get my number & he would always have the chance to call me or text me. actually, we don`t always text. :) we don`t always communicate since he is really busy with his work, carrier & everything. once a month, he would txt me or sometimes call me & like, we`re having a "long distance relationship". haha. well, anyway. last December, i was super hurt with what he texted me, "i know you`re happy, and don`t worry, i could work this out nah." it was like, HA? he said, someone told him that i have a NEW special someone & we are working everything`s up, like HELLO? that`s a very sh*t thing. :) nah. & it was like that. my CMAS, & NEW YEAR was cold because he hadn`t shown up. he didn`t even greet me a Happy New Year & like it was, SAD. :( uh, i then thought of moving on, AGAIN. haha. toink. because i found out that things are not doing well. like, i`m just the only one who`s alive & uh. i don`t really understand. my mind was fixed that i should really move, but then my heart was insisting that i shouldn`t. O.o have you tried feeling that thing? naah. it`s super difficult. :D really. but again, it end up following my heart. :) naaah. in the first week of classes this year, i was like super craving to see him, since i haven`t seen him for more than a week! gosh. it`s hard missing him, but i`m getting used to it. :) we don`t always see each other actually, & i don`t often see him @ school. & i super wonder why. hehe. maybe he`s too busy with some other things. :p then, we had the chance to be together when we went to Davao for the Student Leaders Summit. :) i felt his love that time talaga. & like, it was super sweet. i won`t tell the events here `coz i prefer to keep it private. haha. XD i hope that thing would happen again. but i think, it would be very impossible. he`s more busy now. & like, i`m thinking that i should set aside this love story first & concentrate more in my academics. i believe that their is really a happy ending for this, with God`s help & guidance. i`m always praying for him, & also for us. :) i don`t know what will happen if i will lose him. that would then be the lowest point of my life.

PS: the name of this guy will remain to be a secret, until he would become my first boyfriend. :)
if it will turn out that i would be seeing some other guy, & he would become my first boyfriend, HIS name will be SECRET forever. XD

I LOVE HIM & nothing`s gonna change my love for him. ^_____________^

I love you, Dear! :p

From Ate Jedyl :)

“ I don’t want you to court me!” (said with a snarl)

or

"I think it would be better if we would just be friends."


WHAT EXACTLY IS THE BEST WAY TO STOP A GUY FROM COURTING A LADY?

In a woman's life, it is inevitable that she has to prohibit someone from pursuing her. The reasons vary from one situation to another but the fact remains. She wants him to stop courting her and she really means it. However, in the want to bar him from doing so, she wants to be cautious so as not to hurt him. After all, he is a nice guy, just not the guy for her.

PROBLEM NO. 1
When she is gentle in stopping him, he tells her that he understands. At least at the moment of the conversation. Because a day after, he is all back to wooing her as if nothing happened! No matter how many times she tells him to stop, he just never does! This is no longer appealing to her. In fact it is becoming very annoying.

PROBLEM NO. 2
When she tries to be mean towards him, he becomes silent. He says sorry and says he understands. Then he starts to haunt her conscience, as if she had been such an evil person and he had been so desperate and so poor. Human as the woman is, she does get affected.

So how exactly should she tell him to stop making all the efforts? Somebody help her!


*** And they say women are so shrewd! Hmph!

Girls need to realize

Guys don't care if you're friends
with
other guys.

But when you're sitting next to us,
and some random guy walks into the
room and you jump up and tackle him,
without even introducing us, yeah, it
pisses us off.

It doesn't help if you sit there and
talk to him for ten minutes without
even acknowledging the fact that we're
still there.

We don't care if a guy calls OR TEXTS
you, but at 2 in the morning we do get
a little concerned.

Nothing is that important at 2 a.m.
that it can't wait
till the morning.

Also, when we tell you you're pretty/
beautiful/ gorgeous/
cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it.

Don't tell us we're wrong.
We'll stop trying to convince you.

The sexiest thing about a girl is
confidence.

Yeah, you can quote me.

Don't be mad when we hold the door
open. Take Advantage of the mood I'm
in.

Smile and say "thank you."


You don't have to get dressed up for
us.

If we're going out with you in the
first place, you don't have to feel
the need to
wear the shortest skirt you have or
put on every kind of makeup you own.

We like you for who you are and not
what you are.
honestly, i think a girl looks more
beautiful when she's just in her pj's.


Don't take everything we say
seriously. [=))]

Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the
beauty in it.

Don't get angry easily.

Stop using magazines/media as your
bible.

"Don't talk about how hot Chris Brown,
Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in
front of us".
It's boring, and we don't care. You
have friends for that.

Whatever happened to the
word "handsome"/"beautiful"

i'd be utterly stunned by a girl who
greeted me
with "Hey handsome!" instead of "Hey
baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy" or whatever
else you can think of.
on the other hand I'm not saying i
wouldn't like it ether ; )

Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if
you aren't being treated right by a
guy, won't wait for him to change.
ditch his sorry ASS,he's a disgrace to
the male population and find someone
who will treat you with utter respect.

Someone who will honor your morals.

Someone who will make you smile when
you're at your lowest.

Someone who will care for you even
when you make mistakes.

Someone who will love you, no matter
how bad you make them feel.

Someone who will stop what they're
doing just to look you in the
eyes....and say "i love you" ..and
actually mean it.

Give the nice guys a chance.

``:p this is cute - haha. XD``

Thank GOD :)

i have my new cp nah. wee. :p 3315 - i don`t care if it`s an old model already, the most important thing is that i have something for some important cases. since i`m an officer, i need a CP to communicate with my other co-officers. & i also need a CP to chitchat with my friends, and some other people around. wee. thank GOD, really. Thanks ma! :D

& like, yesterday. we had our meeting in school together with our moderator - Mr. Bonifacio Labadan. we talked about the KOOLER issue & so as our membership fee (if we`ll increase or not, most esp in the Intrams Fee, since we are already hailed as ONE unit, & we badly need a GOOD budget for it). & also our OFFICE. :p we really need an office in order for our things to be settled, and para sayon ra paghagilap sa mga students sa amo. hehe. :)

anyway, i`m currently super inlove with the song - Take You There by Sean Kingston. :) i love everything about the song. AS IN. haha. toinktoink. :]

& gosh, OVERLOVED - the song played by Winamp! :D kron lng. weee.
i always remember him everytime i hear this song. as in. prang, kato tanan mu flash back sa akong mind & like, SUPER KILIG kaayo. hehe. gosh. :)

and oh,
i`m kinda like hating someone, as of now. naaah. it`s like, OA na kaau. ainako. ana xa he won`t surrender & he`ll wait & everything. shet xa ha. gakaulit gyud ko sa iya kay he`s really insisting na LOVE na gyud iya gaka feel for me & like, he doesn`t even prove it to me. well, i don`t care if he`ll prove it or NOT. mas maayo gne kung dleh na. pra klaro na gyud kaau nga wlai chance, dba? i hate guys which are like that! :p as in. salig xa kay almost all of my friends LIKE him for me. darn? okay fine. nyaaah. i have nothing to do with it. WALA NAH. ambot, sumo na kaayo. i want him to STOP, & i don`t want him to wait either. i don`t think he have the chance, naaah. & like, dleh pud ko gusto maka hurt ug isa ka tao. ainako, i hope i`m brave enough to tell him these things. O.o

so, i`m so gutom nah. HAHA. golly.
GOD please help me! nyaaah. :

i miss you oi, i miss you. HAHA. XD
shockerr. unsa gne to oi?
glittered cutie honey bunchie babe? glittered baby cutie honey bunchie babe?
shocks. I FORGOT na gyud. :(
ainako, maka remember unta ko! GOD, help! :p

haha. cge, gtg. mwamwa.
Lovelots. :)