12.28.07

` my day is really weak..

i don't have that enough strength to wake up this morning. mom was already dressed, because she has some appointment and takels is out of the house very early. she went somewhere else. and yeah, the room was really SILENT all through the day. when takels went back home, she told me that she will use the pc to chat with his husband and i should be out of the room, just for awhile. teehee. and so, i stayed in my lola's room and watched TV, phew! i really enjoyed watching the shows. most especially the "Detective Conan" nyah. it was the best! hehe. i also love the PIGS in "Pokemon", they were really cute. really. i tell you. hehe. :D

after a few hours, nalipong ko kalit. cguro because of my lola's perfume "Beautiful" (it was really my favorite perfume but then, when i sprayed it all over BABY PEGGY, i felt like a lil dizzy) nyah. really. that feeling lasts long until now. i don't know what's the cause. and ahai, whatever. i don't really feel that well.

GEO - ate dhebbie's cousin, is really cute. hehe. he's handsome and all. i'm so looking forward on meeting him soon. hehe. wuhhuu, i need to move on, DUH. :D

i enjoyed chatting with alyssa and nina. hehe. they're really fun! hehe. :D

ate fibe and kuya macky - they're so SWEET. really. i watched their video and pixes, GOSH. kilig kau sila. kulang nalang alamigason sila sa ka sweet. hehe. i will always be your number 1 fan, promise. :D

ooopps.. new year is coming. i don't know what will happen next year. i hope it will be a good year to me and also to my family. :D

orayt .. i won't stay long guys. i don't feel that well baya. toingk, (pero maka net pa gihapun hehe)

hao shui. twtdrmz people! buh-bye. :D

NYR

NYR stands for "New Year's Resolution"..

it has been my belief that every end of the year, i'll make a LIST of the things that i need to change and do for the next year. so now since it's the 27th of Dec and New Year's Eve is coming, i think i need to make and i'm so willing to share it here. hehe. since nobody knows yet about my URL - i will write all i can in here. :D

• i should bring back the old Kisha - STRONG one. :D

• i should minimize my CRYING moments. because i know it makes me weak, A LOT. :D

• i should spend a lot of time with my STUDIES, and LESS time with the non-important things. :D

• if i could get over him, i promise - it would be a long REST for my heart. i won't FALL in love again. my heart will be temporarily closed, and wouldn't ENTERTAIN any guests. hehe. :D

• i should always let mom feel that I LOVE HER very much and she really means a lot for me. i will really do the IMPOSSIBLE just for her. :D

• i should spend less on checking my FS (Friendster), Multiply, and writing here in my blog. because, it cause an ILLNESS. hehe. i'm feeling it. darn.

• i should always think POSITIVE and i should always think that i can do EVERYTHING that i can't do. :D

• i should always have faith with GOD, and i promise, HE will continue to be my #1 BESTFRIEND. :D

• i shouldn't CHANGE. i should still be the KISHA they knew before. :D

• i should always watch with my health. :D

• i promise to SPARE some time with my friends. :D

• i should learn how to balance my studies and extra-curricular things. :D

` nyah. that's all i think. id post some of the things i forgot if i could remember it again. hehe. i miss peggy. :D

*:)

SUDDENLY
/music & lyrics by sKippyX/

Suddenly the breeze is blowing on the wrong side
the moments stay in missing you
now that you're gone w/ the wind

REF.
I've fallen 4 u
why did u suddenly vanish like a memory fading away
When destiny called us
with not enough reason-
day turned to night...suddenly

CHORUS:
Coz now you're gone
so many skies I've wished upon
I'm still holding onto you
I'm still hanging onto nothing
-waiting for you, waiting for you...

The world seems so heavy
when you sed you luv me(you love me)
But then I realized I love you too(luv you too)

REF & CHORUS

Bridge:
When everything's alright
when there's me & you
why do u suddenly have to go?
(have to go)

CHORUS

` this song was made based on my lovelife kuno. hehe. btw, it shows

what i'm currently feeling for SOMEONE. darn. this is so DUH. iknw.

but i so LOVE the song. it's so nice. and a big HURRAY to:

Kuya Kevin aka SKIPPYX.

hehe. thanks kuya, A LOT. :D

12/26/07

` it has been a NICE day for me. it isn't that FUN, pro ok lng talaga. hehe. a lot says "GITAMBOK NAKA KISH". gosh.IKNW. darn. haha. well,i won't really regret coz i really eat a LOT. haha. darn. but now, i'm starting with my DIET thingy again, it's really needed. i don't wanna LOOK FAT in the prom night noh. i really wanted to LOSE weight, so i will really do my best. haha. i wouldn't eat a lot, PROMISE. :D

uhmm. i'm thinking about my New Year's Resolution. i think i need to change some of my BAD attitude. hehe. well, i'll post those if i have come to THINK and WRITE about it. hehe. :D

Ate Justine and I have the same LOVELIFE situation. haha. YES! i confide to her what i feel about PEGGY and the like. it just happens that we FEEL the same feelings, but not with the same person hah. hehe. :D

orayt, i always woke up HOPING someone special will text me - GOODMORNING. :(
i'm just HOPING - HOPING && YEAH, HOPING. :(

lang2 and ate kakay will be going back to GAPO tomorrow. yeah, i will feel a BIT sadness on facing it. for sure. they are one of the PEOPLE who completes my life. REALLY.

i miss my co-FERNS. and BESTS birthday is coming. nyah. i have no idea on what to give her. hehe. toingk. i miss the people, i miss the SCHOOL, i miss ALL. darn. :P

mom is really comparing me to my friend. huhu. IDNTLIKEIT. :(

i wanna bring back the OLD KISHA - STRONG,CUTE, (always) INSPIRED. :D

OMG.people drives me so insane. DARN. :\

BUHBYE people. LOTSACARE. :D

darn.LOVE.

Have you ever felt that feeling whenever you see someone, freeze and your heart starts to beat so fast and you have to hold on to something so you wouldn’t fall? Sometimes when they talk to you, do you utter stupid words and end up embarrassing yourself? It’s not that you want it, but just the presence of that person makes your heart beat faster and slower at the same time. Would you be brave and admit your feelings? What if it’s simply not meant to be, do you give up? Or keep trying and end up with nothing? Well, that’s love. Its irony speaks, but you got to take risks to get answers. When you meet someone and you gradually fall in love with that person, try to express your love to her because every moment you wasted would be equal to tons of regret in the end. Don’t wait until it’s too late to tell someone how much you love, how much you care. Because when they are gone, no matter how loud you shout and cry they won’t hear you anymore.

The love you can’t have lasts the longest, feels the strongest and hurts the most. It’s so hard pretending to be friends with someone special when every time you look at that person it just hurts even more knowing that all you see is ultimately everything that you want but you can’t have. Isn’t it stupid when you say, “no, I don’t love that person anymore.” But still, when the memories are refresh and that person become visible again in your life. You’ll stare and say, “Damn it! Why can’t I forget you?” So each time I see you, I say to myself, “I moved on.” Each time you smile at me, I say to myself, “yeah, were just friends!” But every time you look at me, I end up saying, “Shit! It’s so hard to pretend!” It’s hard to love someone who is not serious enough. Time would give you chances to talk, chances to be together and chances to share. See how it hurts?! You only have chances, just chances.
A heartbreak isn’t as loud as a bomb exploding. Sometimes it can be as quiet as a feather falling and the most painful thing is no one really hears it except you. You can handle the pain that you feel and make others believe that you can move on. But you can never deny the truth to yourself that the person who failed and hurt you is still the person you’ll choose to love. I cried so many times because of a love lost and a love I never really had. I suffered pain worse than dying. But feelings change and there’s one lesson that everybody should learn in time…move on. You can’t finish a book without closing its chapters. If you want to move on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the pages. Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by a single caress. It’s a lifetime venture in which we are always learning, discovering and growing. The greatest irony of love is letting go when you need to hold on and holding on when you need to let go. We lose someone we love only when we are destined to find someone else who can love us even more than we can love ourselves. Learn to appreciate the rainbow after cursing the rain. It’s just like loving again after experiencing pain. Loving someone can’t be proven with just the way you feel, the words you say of the things you give. If you’ve ignored yourself and sacrificed your own happiness for the one you love, you know what love means.

` got this from: GLADYS.
it's really nice. and i so agree with it. but naa ko questie:

how will i forget someone if i will always think of HIM?

and i really can't stop it.

nyah.

My Adopted Baby! :D

Click here to see kishyxd's virtual baby.

Don't believe easily ..

.. with d tongues of every guys!

LEND ME YOUR EYES TO READ THESE COUPLE OF WORDS:

This were some of the common lines of
them:

1) I will not leave you..that's a
promise.

2) I mean it when I say...

3) I'm inlove with you..I don't know..
it just happened..

4) I love you, more than what you
think.

5) Of course you'll have me forever...
ikaw pa! (duuuuuhh kaayo na style uy!)


....but despite all the words.. all
that lines..all that paCHAR2X
epek...only one thinG will surely
reveal... LIES!!!

....so sumo toh think about it... so
blah blah to hear those ewan nalang!
so so so CHURVA nalang!

....that's why,DON'T MAKE PROMISES
THAT YOU CAN'T KEEP....
...Don't try to fool someone's
innocent soul...
....have pity on them...shame on
you...find your conscience...

` from: eveneHeneve

http://profiles.friendster.com/heneve32mae

` i so agree with her. REALLY. you know what, i used to get JELLY with this girl. haha. i just wouldn't state the reason why. haha. it's so FUNNY really. :D

btw, GOODMORNING FOLKS! :D

<3

3< .hcum os yggep evol i

!yllaer

:D

:D

BABY PEGGY :D

Birthday: December 22, 2007

PROM

` next month would be JANUARY. a new YEAR of living, new year of CHALLENGES and all. and the most awaited PART of the JUNIORS will happen - the PROMNIGHT.

in our school, we could attend our PROM for two years. in the 3rd and 4th year. the 3rd and 4th year students are combined and everything will be soo, hmm? idk. haha. ya'knw, i'm so excited with the fact that i'm going to be a LADY, having a PARTNER all night long. haha. i hope my promPARTNER would be HANDSOME,GENTLEMAN, or in short - an IDEALPARTNER of each girls. hehe. nyah. i would be very LUCKY if i could be partnered with the PARTNER i'm dreaming of. haha. toingk. :D

instead of partners, i'm also excited wearing my GOWN for that night. i still don't have any idea on what to wear, what color and EVERYTHING. the most important thing is that, i could LOSE weight before the PROM. haha. (i'm working on it. :D)

but hey, the most AWAITED PART of every students - the PRACTICES. haha. i know there will be an ALLOTED time for the practices, so our classes are shortened and everyone will be happy. (haha, for sure.)

well, uh. i'm just excited to write this post because i'm GETTING EXCITED. haha. really. not to mention the payments, and everything. toingk. :D

whatever! anyhoo, thanks for bests. i'm FEELING GOOD now. hehe. i'm not sad anymore, i'm GETTING HAPPY. haha. mwah mwah! i love you blog. always and forever ..

:(

HAPPY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE! :D

` it isn't the eve of CMAS. but hey, i want this to end, like BOOM.

like that. nyah. i'm hurting and i can't let this feeling flow upto

next year. i want a HAPPY LIFE. no WORRIES and everything.

if i'll get through this, i PROMISE - I WON'T FALL IN LOVE AGAIN.

` i don't know why i still can't get over him.

since TIME proves me that it isn't worth it

to HOLD ON with my love for him. it's TOO MUCH.

soo MUCH. and i want this to be OVER.

` it's difficult though. ate fibe's right. LETTING GO of someone is

really HARD. superbly. i hope that i can do this,

and i hope that i could get the REAL HAPPINESS by letting him go. :(

IT'S REALLY HARD. and i don't wanna cry. it's not WORTH IT anymore.

OH MY GOD. HELP ME! I SO NEED YOU.

CMAS :D

` tonight will be the CMAS eve. and hey, i'm not EXCITED. HONEST! and PROMISE and SWEAR and WTE! hehe. i just don't feel like celebrating CMAS happily. nyah. :(

but in the other side, i'm happy. hehe. i have my new BABY PEGGY! my LIFE-SIZED teddy bear. nyaah. THANK YOU SO MUCH MOM for granting my wish. it's just my CMAS wish though. i'm so happy to have my baby. hehe. :D

i miss my friends so much, i miss school and i miss him. ya'knw, i have received a news from him. shocks. it's not GOOD and it's not BAD either. it's just that, it wasn't for me, it was for HER! YEAH. her, there's a GIRL involved in the story then. JEALOUS mode. maympa cla! darn. WTE. :(

i hope Kuya Kevin could write a song for me, about my ESTOOPED (haha) lovelife! SHECKS. oyeah. :D haha.

i want to join the LTS. but i'm sure mom willn't allow me, AGAIN. huhu. it will be held on MAPAWA for 4 days, i think. nyah. i know it will be fun, but unsaon taman, murag malabo gyud nga sugtan ta. darn. :P

anyhoo, i'm so PROUD of my self. haha. i was able to made the WEBSITE of my tita kel. and yeah, it was GOOD accdg to the PEOPLE. naks. haha. i hope i could make a WEBSITE of my own. hehe. nyah. :D

NERO PHOTOSHOP is a GREAT help for me. as i EDIT my pics, and so as making my BG. hehe. thanks NERO! u're one of the BEST. :D

i'm still not sure if i will RUN as the pres of SSA next school year. i'm so confused and i'm AFRAID. really. the fact that i THINK i'm not responsible and the like. nyah. WTE. i'm just afraid. :(

hmm. and yeah,AGAIN. i'm not excited for CMAS. hahahah. :D ( waiting for your call violet! :D )

okay. i need to go people!
MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL OF YOU! :D