01.23.08

the very "memorable" day of my YEAR, this has been the FIRST TIME i cried this year .. i promised not to cry, but i really CAN`T hold on my tears .. it`s too much, i guess .. the reason is - "nagmahay ko kay mama". you can`t really UNDERSTAND me .. there have been a lot of instances where, i think OVER na kaau .. it`s like, WLAY trust si mama sa ako, and she always say nga I CAN`T DO SUCH THINGS WHICH OTHERS CAN DO! .. like TAASON AKONG RANK SA HONORS LIST, and like that .. i`m sooooo WEAK .. nasakitan kaau ko, i THOUGHT mom would help me and would ENCOURAGE me to STUDY MORE & HARDER to achieve the SPOT she WANT me to achieve .. and yeah, i`m DOING it actually .. she ALWAYS think nah i don`t STUDY and gina takataka lang nako ako quiz, LAIN kaau. promise! .. i don`t know what i will do about this kay natambunan na akong MIND sa PAIN .. really! .. mas sakit pani kesa sa LOVE .. nyah .. and i don`t know with HER side also .. i don`t know what she is thinking, but i HOPE naka huna2 siya nga NASAKITAN kau ko, sobra .. :'[

i`m always pretending like everything is OKAY .. and uh, actually, DILI gyud .. smile smile lang and everything .. btw, I NEED MOM`S SUPPORT AND ENCOURAGEMENT! .. SHE`S ONE OF THE PRECIOUS THINGS THAT`S LEFT IN MY LIFE, THAT`S WHY I REALLY NEED HER, and SHE IS ONE OF MY INSPIRATIONS! I LOVE MY MOM! ........ :'[

i`m gonna cry ..

anyway, just this morning .. we have HEARD the love story of mam lauren, and it was really WOW! .. you can`t expect na in-ana ang life niya .. i was really SHOCKED when i heard about it .. and it TOUCHED my heart .. really .. sorry i can`t tell with you the WHOLE story, it`s so confidential then .. well, uh .. i wanna be well ! ..

BYE! :[