Life - it is.

I don`t know if what`s the effect of my title for you. But for me, it`s depressing. My life nowadays is really like super complicated. O.o I never thought i would undergo such thing like that. Since, i`m thinking that, i`m still super young to encounter such things like this.

It was never easy to believe at first. Issues & stories about someone whom I trusted & loved before, well, i mean until now. I heard those things a lot of times already, but i kept on ignoring it, since I feel like I know what`s the truth behind it. It was really hard for me since my friends are always saying that I need to move on with this someone`s love. Holding on to him isn`t really worth your happiness, according to them. I didn`t opened this issue again, for I know it`ll keep on bugging me again. Thinking on what is the right answer & scenario about that thing. Until such time that someone, i mean, a close friend of mine, confessed on what she learned about him. I know she doesn`t like that guy, & I thought that the one she will tell me is something like a `not` serious thing. So, I didn`t really mind it. After I read the text message she sent me. My world was like falling. I was thinking like, `Is this the end of the world?` Gosh. It was really not easy to believe it. But then, I thought, even if that thing is true or not, i realized, i`m not doing the right thing anymore. It was like, i`m always expecting for something that would happen to us.

In my previous post, I was like super proud to share to you my lovelife. But now, I felt so ashame about it. Everything`s really funny, yes it is. I`m currently confused again. BUT, i`m not already confused on what my decision is. My decision is FINAL. & you kill me if I will change decision again. That is, to move on. To let go with someone whom I wasted my life & time. I know, this is my fault. But I have nothing to do about this, rather, accept the fact that this is my destiny. & LEARN from this stupid experience.

I have tried a lot of attempts to move on, to forget him, to let go of him - I hope, I wish & I pray that this would be successful.

I`m full of hatred. I know the right thing to do is to forgive that person, but I think it would take time to forgive him. I suffered a lot of pains, heartaches & everything, & I don`t know if I could still forgive him. GOD help me do the right thing. ^_^

I won`t be surprised if he`ll say this thing: "Kisha, JOKE rato tanan. SORRY!"
Well, if that would happen, expect a forceful slap from me, Mister.

I don`t care if the time will come & you`ll have a chance to read this post. I don`t care if you`ll be angry with me. I don`t care if you won`t talk to me anymore. I don`t care if you will spread this thing in the whole campus. I DON`T CARE. Get it? Don`t care about me, rather, show your CARE to your someone! Definitely, NOT ME!

Well, that`s it. This isn`t enough to express my anger to that someone. But I think, that would be better. ^_^ I won`t let my time be wasted again. Thank you GOD for giving me this kind of challenge, it really challenged me, & it made me STRONGER than what I used to be.

I need to accept what my fate brings me. Challenges. Heartaches. Pains. Obstacles. Happiness. Life - it is.