TODAY

is November 1. the start of my ever waited month - November. 17 days to go, then i'll be FIFTEEN. gosh, i'm growing old nah. so excited for the upcoming days, i'll be going to see my friends again on Nov5, my bro's bday - Nov14, mom's bday - Nov16, my day - Nov17, and a very special day - Nov18 (only me knows about what happened that day. but it isn't important anyway). sooo, my month is filled with excitement, happiness, and a bit sadness. to tell you frankly, i'm happy. so happy. you don't need to know the reason why i'm happy, baket hindi ba pwede? well, i have been a happy person ever since. but dili jud maiwasan nga in some ways, i'm sad. it's because, i miss my father so much. so so much. i tell you, it isn't easy to accept the fact that my father is nowhere to be found physically. but i know that he is spiritually alive. omg, i just miss him, so much. really! well, anyway, this evening, we went to Greenhills to visit my father and Lolo Pab's grave. it's raining so hard, may nalang naay tent. we had our dinner there, together with my Mom, my bro (KP), Tita Kel, Tita Christine, Marie, Sheila, Kuya Allen, Lola and her friend. though, mom always let us keep our mouth shut, 'coz she is thorougly irritated. so, i was so silent all the way. keeping my sweet smiles, and hard laughs. rawr, it ain't easy keeping the real you, i say. :) after awhile, we decided not to stay long there, 'coz Tito Sal is online nah, and i also don't wanna miss Marimar. haha. i'm just getting hook up with it. such a nice teleserye! :) uh, then now. we are home. actually, ganina rato. hehe. currently, i'm so bothered with my dream last night. it was really stupid? i say. nyaaah. i don't know what's the real meaning about that dream, but i'm not interested to know it either. it was about someone, who have been a part of my life, and masyadong masyado ang nangyari doon. haha. diba bests? lol. sorry, it's not appropriate to post it here. and that's it, i think i have so many things to buy for the upcoming classes. yeah, i need to buy another earphone for my MP4. guba nasad xa, gosh. i need to be careful next time. and i think, i have so many things to do. really! hey, please help me pray about the results of my exams. i hope it's all positive. gosh, i'm so nervous about it. basta, i know, i did my very best, and i hope that best is really enough for me to prove to my mom that i really can do it. haay. anyway, it's 11:25pm (my time) and i'm still very awake. haha. so so, i need to go. i need to fix my multiply pah. till here.

hao shui (goodnight) :]
iloveyou all.. :)