I`m so TIRED

shockness. it has been a very long time since i last visit and wrote something here in my blog. and there are these VALID reasons behind: first, i`m EXTREMELY tired. second, i was HURT, and like - it made me SO weak that i can`t afford to type a single letter here in my blog, and THIRD, i don`t understand what i feel. :(

promise. i`m like so exhausted for the whole week. and i don`t know how to get over it. HELP me, please? :'(

i think seeing HIM would be the BEST solution. but it`s so IMPOSSIBLE. tomorrow, i`ll be seeing him, hopefully.

uh, i started my week with having my monthly period. and it was over DUH. i was really moody last past few days, and i always got hurt EASILY. like, hello? nyah. i know it`s because of my "hormones". i`m also like working to understand some of my friends`s attitude. and i tell you, it`s not easy to accept THEIR own personalities. but i love them, that`s why i`m working on it PIECE by PIECE. nyah. :\

last Tuesday, i never thought i would be VERY hurt with the things Kuya Henry said about someone. i was like so silent the whole time he UTTERED all those words, and when i felt like i can`t carry it anymore - I WALKED OUT. feeling so SAD, feeling so DOWN & everything. i don`t know if he knows what i feel, but it was like so SAKIT. maskin dli ako ang tao. pro murag lain kau paminawon ky, dretso lang daun xa mag judge nga in-ana xa, without knowing him that much. JUDGING IS REALLY BAD - labaw na kung NEGATIVE. i feel sorry for him. i know A LOT don`t like him, i know. but i`m STILL holding on, and i don`t know why. :'(

he`s a person who`s DIFFICULT to forget. everything all about HIM is wonderful. i mean, he`s really TRUE. nyah. i hope he really is. kahit na in-ani ko karon, i still have a LOT of questions travelling all around my mind. hoping that someday, i can have the ANSWERS. hahai. i can`t expect na i`m having a problems like these now. some would say (scientifically) that this is because of OUR hormones because i`m growing and like that. BLABLA. i don`t think so. IDONTKNOW. shocks. i`m going crazy. ;p

and like in the other hand, i`m happy. because atlast, i saw ate fibe and like we BONDED this afternoon in MCDO. nag treat xa sa amo, and bibo kaau mi. hehe. i hope mahitabo to utro bei. CHARING. hehe. nyah. :)

hahai. i need to sleep BLOGGIE. nyah.
mwa mwa & mwa. :)

GODBLESS me in my performance tomorrow.

;p

~* kishy