Richard Poon @ SM CDO

July 18, 2008, 6pm.

I'm really happy for i had the chance to see him perform live. :) Thank GOD for letting his managers think that he will have an Album Tour here in Cagayan de Oro. He was and IS really AMAZING. xD I love the way he sings & he's really super HANDSOME. And gosh, he's so tall! ^-^ promise. I can't forget the things that happened that day. xD



I'm gonna chikka to you the things that happened BEFORE the show in English mixed with some Vernacular words. tehee.



I went to SM all ALONE. Since my Kuya doesn't want to go with me 'coz he's busy DAW. Keber! And uh, Marie was still in her school - STUDYING (of course). Soo, i decided to go there alone. To tell you honestly, i was so SCARED. Since, SM is very far away in CDO and like, wala lng. Hadlok lang gyud xa in nature. hehe! I went out the house at around 3:20 pm and Reached SM CDO at around 4:00 pm. Dali ra kaayo ko nakaabot, since dli kaayo traffic and ang jeep nga akong nasakyan kay medyo puno na. xD And so, ayun. I went inside SM, and went directly upstairs sa Event Center. Oh, i just then realized nga I'M TOO EARLY. Haha! There was still a program going on there, and sunod pa ato ang show ni RP. So, ayun. I was texting Bests that time, and like funny jud kaayo ko. OVER EXCITED in short. HAHA. I waited till the staffs finished arranging the stairs and everything. When i saw some people na nilingkod na sa stairs, that was then i thought nga time najud mulingkod pra maka lingkod ko sa front seats. So, i went inside. SADIHANG, gipigilan ko sa guard, and he asked - "Naa kay Album? Dili rba makasulod ang walay CD." Just then, nawad-an ko'g strength. Since wla pa koy album nya, kay, GOD, mahal na ang bugas karon. LOL. ;p Murag mu collapse nko sa ka-SAD kay dli ko ka sulod. GOSH. So, i texted Bests and i told her what i felt and everything. Ana xa, mangita jd ko'g way. So ayun, i was wishing na makakita ko'g someone close sa ako para maka borrow ko'g money and makabuy ko'g album nya. Nigawas nalang dayon ko sa CR, and nag tanga daun ddto dapit sa CIRCLE2 sa tunga btw sa SM. hay. I was soooo HOPELESS sa mga gakahitabo. Dayon, nakita nko akong TITA sa akong pag muni muni sa surroundings. :) Nabutngan ko'g light, GAMAY. hehe. I was planning to borrow money sa iya, PERO, nwala xa. :( So, i was hopeless again. And like, wala na. NAWAD-AN NA JUD KO UG PAG-ASA. So, wala. Wala nkoy choice, sa gwas nalang jud ko. -.- Kaluoy sad nko. hehe! Ug dayon, naay miracle. xD WEE, ana tong HEAD nila nga ipasulod nalang daw mi. Sa walay pag duha2, nisulod jud ko ug naglingkod gyud ko sa atubangan. pra wlay samuk. HAHA. Dayon, mao to. Sa pagka baga sa face nko, nag borrow ko'g album sa akong katapad pra makakuha ko'g Poster nya. HAHA. grabeh jd. So mao to, nag show na sya. And dli jud ko maka believe nga naa na xa skong atubangan. And, after sa show. I had a chance to have a pic with him. Naa sa taas, LOOK. hehe. And that's it. It's so MEMORABLE. AS IN AS IN. xD

Much much

My life now is very confusing, i say. -.-

I don't know what's the whole point in my lovelife now. Will i let him go or not? Puff. This bothers me much! I talked to him last Saturday, and it turned out to be like, i'm saying that i still have hope for the both of us, and it's, ohmy. I don't know what i was saying to him that time. All i remembered was, i said YES. And his question was, "What if i was courting you now, will you give me a chance or not?" and that's what i said - YES. I said it, maybe because, i still love him, and i still WANT him. I mean, NEED. :) I don't know if i did the right thing, but i was just saying the truth. Oh, but still, i'm bothered about some things around. -.- I just can't forget what he said "Yes, I love you. But we need to set LIMITATIONS." and at that point, he's correct. We're both committed to our own organizations which is really needed to put some big attention. In reality, i'm willing to wait for him. Yes, i'll do anything for him. Even the impossible, it's because I love him. And that connects to a line in one of my favorite songs - Bleeding Love by Leona Lewis. Here it goes: "I don't care what they say, i'm in love with you. They try to pull me away but they don't know the truth". HAHA. Funny, it's not. Hay. And that's it.

In the other way around, there's this one guy - Roland. -.-
He's my crush. Yeah, he is. I like him, i mean there's something in him that i really like. And maybe i already figured it out, it's his PHYSICAL APPEARANCE. He's handsome. That's the main reason, big time. I like the way he smile. Cute. But i think i'm not really attracted to him emotionally. Last summer time, i was hoping that he would like me too. And now, it's coming true. It's like, i don't know what to do with it. I don't wanna hurt anyone. Really. But i guess, this time, i will face my weakness, "To open up with someone. And talk to him/her frankly." Tomorrow is the day. I'll tell him that i'm still not ready to enter into a relationship. Since, i still don't have something for him. I don't want to have a FLING type relationship. And i don't think i'll fall for him. Oh, i don't know. I don't know what will happen next. -.-

But i think, it's better if i'll rest my heart first and start to recover some things. Though, i guess, if i'll keep on seeing him (Peggy), he will always be the one. -.- I think i'm too martyr. Oh, i just can't help it.

Things will go well, i know. :)

It's better time.

I'm currently facing the thing that i'm afraid might happen. It's to let the one i love go, even if i still love him. You're the witness of all the sufferrings i encountered, all the tears, the feelings, the "kilig" moments, and everything. And now, you witness the MAJOR HEART BREAK of Kisha. My heart broke a lot of times, but just yesterday (June 14, 08), it was completely, badly broken. It was because of me, and also him. He thought that i'm happy with these new guy in my life, and he decided to set me free for my happiness. He's right. I mean, i know i'm deserving to be happy, but it doesn't mean that i haven't felt happiness with him after all. It's just that i need to move on. I'm sick of being stuck and i'm sick of always hoping for us to be what we were before. (But to tell you honestly, i'm still hoping. If there's love, there's hope) Even if i'm sick of those things, i still don't know how to let him go. 'coz i feel like, it's hard. SUPER hard. Though, maybe, one of these days/months/years, i could learn how. But as of now, i still don't know even a single idea on how to do it. It would take time, yeah. I just need to pray for whatever may happen next. Message for him: You're right. Everything you said was right. But hey, i wanted to thank you for everything! You will always be my inspiration in my studies, carreer, and on whatever aspects. You will always have a place inside my heart. Sorry for the lapses, or for the things that i misunderstood. I'm not perfect, and so are you. I hope that we could learn from each other's experience. :) Maybe, we're really not meant for each other, but also maybe, this is just a test. (Oh c'mon, i'm still really hoping. Hay!) And now, i'm facing the fact that i'm afraid might happen, it's to set you free. -.-

Godbless me for everything! and also you, who's reading this. xD

Aloha! ^^

it's been awhile since i last visited my blog. :) in the updates here, i posted my 200th blog entry last May 30 and it was a week ago. eek. my life has been thoroughly busy and tiring these past few days! and not to mention the words of mom and lola! nakakasawa. -.- but i should listen to them. I SHOULD. i think, i'm listening already. ahaha. anyway, we had our outing this day at Bible Camp, Barra Opol and it was SO FUN! :) swimming, laughing, playing games with THEM. with my precious friends. ^^ it was really very very fun!! supermuch. i hope i could still bond with them soon. err. and like, gash!! tomorrow's the first day of school. summer time is finished, time to study! .. and time to get busy with all those stuffs!! i hope i can do this. well, in God's grace, i know .. I CAN! :) anyway.. i need to sleep, it's 9:30pm (my time) and i'm very sleepy since i was tired this day. hay. memories. memories.

is this goodbye?

200th :-)

In my 200th blog post here, I`ve decided to share to you EVERYTHING that i`m feeling in this moment in time. :) I feel blessed, for God gave me a family and friends which makes me happy everytime i feel sad and alone. Everytime I`m thinking of something which i can`t stop thinking about, i prefer to open it up with my friends which i share most of my time. They give me advices (the things that i should do & think about it), and most importantly, they cheer me up. They inspire me with their words, smiles, and their value of friendship. I really THANK GOD for giving me such friends like them. :) Friends do come and go, but no matter what happens, even if we`ll be away with each other, only two words exists: FRIENDS FOREVER. :) Second, I thank GOD for giving me such a very nice & happy family! I`m really not close with my other degrees of cousins, aunts & uncles, but i`m CLOSE with my FIRST DEGREE family. I love to be with them for they understand me for who am i. Even though sometimes, i`m quite lazy doing chores, but it doesn`t mean that i don`t respect them. I respect everyone in this house, and i definitely LOVE everyone here. I`m gonna miss the bonding with my cousins, Lola, Tito and Tita, Bro and most especially MOM. xD Since, i`m always staying in school and i do go home quite late (around 8-9pm). I spend 13 hours outside, and only 9 hours at home. I know Mom`s missing me, but I think I`d do lot of things in school than here. And that`s it. Finished with FAMILY. So, proceed to PERSONALITIES. I don`t a like a certain person right now. I think a lot knows about it then. I don`t like him for he`s something I DEFINITELY DON`T UNDERSTAND. And i think that understanding him would waste my time so I don`t just mind this guy. But i hope, really really hope, that one day, he will CHANGE. -.- Now, LOVELIFE. ^^ Ekk, ya`know. Everything is a mess. I don`t understand where and what i`m going to. I just hope that i could LEARN and LET GO of my past, even if i`m seeing the person which i should LET GO. It`s hard. It`s hard, yeah. SUPER. But i`m hurting everytime i`m seeing something I shouldn`t see. I think I don`t need the time when he`ll gonna say to me everything. It`s really time to MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE ON! No matter how hard it is. :( It`s hard, because i still do love him. But, WHATEVER. ** Crushes. Speaking of crushES, i have lots of crush now. Michael (neighborhood), Kent Bryan (enrollee in school haha), and CRUSH R :) Crush R will be a SECRET, for now. Mama Edge and Ate Mitch are helping me to him. HAHA. Mind you, having a crush is fun. xD New family members: MAMA EDGE (My mom in SSC) and ATE MITCH (My YAYA ;p). They`re definitely fun to be with, of course, with my SOULMATE (Irish). And lastly, the AUSTRALIA thing. Mom opened up about us moving in to Australia, and my bro and I will continue to study there. It made me confused and like, i even asked some of my friends in SSC about it. I think, i should go and grab that opportunity, if ever, that would happen. I hope so! *.*

That`s it.
HAPPY 2OOTH BLOG POSTS, BLOGGIE! :-) I love you FOURTH to God, Family, Friends. LOL. xD

I hope we`ll go deeper and STRONGER! mwaaaah. Loveloooots. xD

Views about PBB

Renzbulseco`s Views:

" think it's okay to nominate robi IF AND ONLY IF (iff) they (nan, ejay and others) have a compelling AND legitimate raison d'être or basis about it. And it doesn't mean that if you came from an affluent family, you can easily achieve your goals and aspirations. Sometimes, even if you are very wealthy, you can’t achieve your goals in life if you don’t work for it. MONEY CAN’T BUY EVERYTHING, for crying out loud. please. save robi. no offense to die hard fans of ejay out there, but he's very illogical and can't compose his thoughts and views very well, most especially that Valerie's out in the game.

AND YEAH. pbb is NOT a charity show, for crap's sake. ugggh."

KISHA`s views: Everything he said are over true. :) PBB is not a show for poor people to become rich, but rather, it`s a reality show for the Filipino people to relinquish their own personalities. Being not plastic, just by being who they are. The tasks given by Kuya determines the real color of each housemates. In the way they react, they solve the problem, and how they will unite. I think Robi is really deserving to be the Big Winner for this season. :) According to Rona "Gusto ko pong si Robi ang manalo kasi he's very disciplined, very humble. It's not the money—kung mayaman si Robi—but it's his personality, he's very open-minded." THAT EXPLAINS EVERYTHING. Right? xD

Friendster Horoscope for May 27, 2008

The Bottom Line
Don't let your confusing dreams take over your waking days. Focus on reality.

In Detail
Disturbing dreams don't have to ruin your waking days! Just because you had some night visions that were somewhat confusing or frightening doesn't mean that they are portending anything bad coming into your life. Sometimes a dream is just a dream -- your subconscious mind is just playing around with different ideas and images. There's no hidden puzzle for you to solve, so don't waste time today trying to figure them out. You'll have different dreams tonight.