Pixes ;D

` peggy and her cousin - tehee. i let her wear a polka dots for new year, PS: with belt huh. hehe. ;D

` this is the proof - nga nag inom jud ko ug wine. haha. ;D

` me. ;D

` mom and i. ;D

2008, welcome! ;D

` omg. i can't believe i'm still here, very alive. nyah. hehe. ;D

this has been my happiest NEWYEAR ever! i'm so happy that i'am with my FAMILY, my dearest mom, bro, LOLA, cousins, UNCLE & AUNT and everything. hehe. we have been so HAPPY, as in. wala na jud koi lain maingon kay HAPPY gyud xa, promise. mas happy pko karon kesa last CMAS. tehee. ;D

well, uh. i so enjoyed BESTS's birthday yesterday. the people were all FUNNY, they're really FUN to be with. PROMISE. hmn, so happy for bests because she has her new "iPOD VIDEO" nah. gosh, i also LIKE that thing, promise. but i know, we can't afford it, so i'm craving for it, SILENTLY. wushhuuu. it's very impossible for mom to read this. nyah. WTE. come what may. i'm already contented on what i have now. ;D

hmn, you know what, i'm so bothered with the SSA thingy. haha. REALLY. will i run or not? hmn. i know i could help a LOT, and i know it could help ME a LOT. but i don't care if it could help me, the most important thing is i could HELPED a lot, and share my own opinions. hmn? WTE. nathalie is ready to run as my vice president. hmn, i think we're a good team. char. hehe. well, i will really think about it and would have a FINAL result, NEXTWEEK. i swear. hehe. ;D

it was my first time to drink a REDWINE yesterday. haha. NOVELINO. wee. it's not that bitter naman, it's really hmn? LAMI. hehe. promise. pro wla ko nahubog ah. hehe. saon! ;D

btw, before i end this. i would like to thank the people who are always there in my times of SADNESS: my co-ferns, BESTS, don, ate fibe, kuya henry, and to all THANK YOU A LOT! ;D

i love you all. ;D

and hey, PEGGY will remain as my SWEETEST memory, taman ra dha. hehe. ;D

HAPPY2008TOYOU! ;D

12.30.07

` wee. i'm so excited for tomorrow's event: BESTS's bday, TITA JEN's bday, NEW YEAR's EVE.

well, those isn't just an ordinary happenings in my life, that's why i'm so looking forward for my day tomorrow. hehe. i'll be meeting some of my friends in Juna's bday, and also, some of my relatives in Tita's bday. hehe. i'm not this happy when CMAS eve came, i was either sad. but now, i have realized that there isn't an enough reason to be SAD, i should be happy either. that's why, hmn, i'm so HAPPY. hehe. getting over with one person is a BIG and GREAT achievement that i have done. hehe. well, i bet you know the person. but PROMISE - he will remain as my CRUSH. waaaaahh. hehe. saon! ;D

anyhoo, 45 minutes left .. boogsh!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BESTS AND TITA JEANIE! ;D

wish you all the bests. tehheee.

ADVANCE HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL! ;D

12.28.07

` my day is really weak..

i don't have that enough strength to wake up this morning. mom was already dressed, because she has some appointment and takels is out of the house very early. she went somewhere else. and yeah, the room was really SILENT all through the day. when takels went back home, she told me that she will use the pc to chat with his husband and i should be out of the room, just for awhile. teehee. and so, i stayed in my lola's room and watched TV, phew! i really enjoyed watching the shows. most especially the "Detective Conan" nyah. it was the best! hehe. i also love the PIGS in "Pokemon", they were really cute. really. i tell you. hehe. :D

after a few hours, nalipong ko kalit. cguro because of my lola's perfume "Beautiful" (it was really my favorite perfume but then, when i sprayed it all over BABY PEGGY, i felt like a lil dizzy) nyah. really. that feeling lasts long until now. i don't know what's the cause. and ahai, whatever. i don't really feel that well.

GEO - ate dhebbie's cousin, is really cute. hehe. he's handsome and all. i'm so looking forward on meeting him soon. hehe. wuhhuu, i need to move on, DUH. :D

i enjoyed chatting with alyssa and nina. hehe. they're really fun! hehe. :D

ate fibe and kuya macky - they're so SWEET. really. i watched their video and pixes, GOSH. kilig kau sila. kulang nalang alamigason sila sa ka sweet. hehe. i will always be your number 1 fan, promise. :D

ooopps.. new year is coming. i don't know what will happen next year. i hope it will be a good year to me and also to my family. :D

orayt .. i won't stay long guys. i don't feel that well baya. toingk, (pero maka net pa gihapun hehe)

hao shui. twtdrmz people! buh-bye. :D

NYR

NYR stands for "New Year's Resolution"..

it has been my belief that every end of the year, i'll make a LIST of the things that i need to change and do for the next year. so now since it's the 27th of Dec and New Year's Eve is coming, i think i need to make and i'm so willing to share it here. hehe. since nobody knows yet about my URL - i will write all i can in here. :D

• i should bring back the old Kisha - STRONG one. :D

• i should minimize my CRYING moments. because i know it makes me weak, A LOT. :D

• i should spend a lot of time with my STUDIES, and LESS time with the non-important things. :D

• if i could get over him, i promise - it would be a long REST for my heart. i won't FALL in love again. my heart will be temporarily closed, and wouldn't ENTERTAIN any guests. hehe. :D

• i should always let mom feel that I LOVE HER very much and she really means a lot for me. i will really do the IMPOSSIBLE just for her. :D

• i should spend less on checking my FS (Friendster), Multiply, and writing here in my blog. because, it cause an ILLNESS. hehe. i'm feeling it. darn.

• i should always think POSITIVE and i should always think that i can do EVERYTHING that i can't do. :D

• i should always have faith with GOD, and i promise, HE will continue to be my #1 BESTFRIEND. :D

• i shouldn't CHANGE. i should still be the KISHA they knew before. :D

• i should always watch with my health. :D

• i promise to SPARE some time with my friends. :D

• i should learn how to balance my studies and extra-curricular things. :D

` nyah. that's all i think. id post some of the things i forgot if i could remember it again. hehe. i miss peggy. :D

*:)

SUDDENLY
/music & lyrics by sKippyX/

Suddenly the breeze is blowing on the wrong side
the moments stay in missing you
now that you're gone w/ the wind

REF.
I've fallen 4 u
why did u suddenly vanish like a memory fading away
When destiny called us
with not enough reason-
day turned to night...suddenly

CHORUS:
Coz now you're gone
so many skies I've wished upon
I'm still holding onto you
I'm still hanging onto nothing
-waiting for you, waiting for you...

The world seems so heavy
when you sed you luv me(you love me)
But then I realized I love you too(luv you too)

REF & CHORUS

Bridge:
When everything's alright
when there's me & you
why do u suddenly have to go?
(have to go)

CHORUS

` this song was made based on my lovelife kuno. hehe. btw, it shows

what i'm currently feeling for SOMEONE. darn. this is so DUH. iknw.

but i so LOVE the song. it's so nice. and a big HURRAY to:

Kuya Kevin aka SKIPPYX.

hehe. thanks kuya, A LOT. :D

12/26/07

` it has been a NICE day for me. it isn't that FUN, pro ok lng talaga. hehe. a lot says "GITAMBOK NAKA KISH". gosh.IKNW. darn. haha. well,i won't really regret coz i really eat a LOT. haha. darn. but now, i'm starting with my DIET thingy again, it's really needed. i don't wanna LOOK FAT in the prom night noh. i really wanted to LOSE weight, so i will really do my best. haha. i wouldn't eat a lot, PROMISE. :D

uhmm. i'm thinking about my New Year's Resolution. i think i need to change some of my BAD attitude. hehe. well, i'll post those if i have come to THINK and WRITE about it. hehe. :D

Ate Justine and I have the same LOVELIFE situation. haha. YES! i confide to her what i feel about PEGGY and the like. it just happens that we FEEL the same feelings, but not with the same person hah. hehe. :D

orayt, i always woke up HOPING someone special will text me - GOODMORNING. :(
i'm just HOPING - HOPING && YEAH, HOPING. :(

lang2 and ate kakay will be going back to GAPO tomorrow. yeah, i will feel a BIT sadness on facing it. for sure. they are one of the PEOPLE who completes my life. REALLY.

i miss my co-FERNS. and BESTS birthday is coming. nyah. i have no idea on what to give her. hehe. toingk. i miss the people, i miss the SCHOOL, i miss ALL. darn. :P

mom is really comparing me to my friend. huhu. IDNTLIKEIT. :(

i wanna bring back the OLD KISHA - STRONG,CUTE, (always) INSPIRED. :D

OMG.people drives me so insane. DARN. :\

BUHBYE people. LOTSACARE. :D

darn.LOVE.

Have you ever felt that feeling whenever you see someone, freeze and your heart starts to beat so fast and you have to hold on to something so you wouldn’t fall? Sometimes when they talk to you, do you utter stupid words and end up embarrassing yourself? It’s not that you want it, but just the presence of that person makes your heart beat faster and slower at the same time. Would you be brave and admit your feelings? What if it’s simply not meant to be, do you give up? Or keep trying and end up with nothing? Well, that’s love. Its irony speaks, but you got to take risks to get answers. When you meet someone and you gradually fall in love with that person, try to express your love to her because every moment you wasted would be equal to tons of regret in the end. Don’t wait until it’s too late to tell someone how much you love, how much you care. Because when they are gone, no matter how loud you shout and cry they won’t hear you anymore.

The love you can’t have lasts the longest, feels the strongest and hurts the most. It’s so hard pretending to be friends with someone special when every time you look at that person it just hurts even more knowing that all you see is ultimately everything that you want but you can’t have. Isn’t it stupid when you say, “no, I don’t love that person anymore.” But still, when the memories are refresh and that person become visible again in your life. You’ll stare and say, “Damn it! Why can’t I forget you?” So each time I see you, I say to myself, “I moved on.” Each time you smile at me, I say to myself, “yeah, were just friends!” But every time you look at me, I end up saying, “Shit! It’s so hard to pretend!” It’s hard to love someone who is not serious enough. Time would give you chances to talk, chances to be together and chances to share. See how it hurts?! You only have chances, just chances.
A heartbreak isn’t as loud as a bomb exploding. Sometimes it can be as quiet as a feather falling and the most painful thing is no one really hears it except you. You can handle the pain that you feel and make others believe that you can move on. But you can never deny the truth to yourself that the person who failed and hurt you is still the person you’ll choose to love. I cried so many times because of a love lost and a love I never really had. I suffered pain worse than dying. But feelings change and there’s one lesson that everybody should learn in time…move on. You can’t finish a book without closing its chapters. If you want to move on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the pages. Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by a single caress. It’s a lifetime venture in which we are always learning, discovering and growing. The greatest irony of love is letting go when you need to hold on and holding on when you need to let go. We lose someone we love only when we are destined to find someone else who can love us even more than we can love ourselves. Learn to appreciate the rainbow after cursing the rain. It’s just like loving again after experiencing pain. Loving someone can’t be proven with just the way you feel, the words you say of the things you give. If you’ve ignored yourself and sacrificed your own happiness for the one you love, you know what love means.

` got this from: GLADYS.
it's really nice. and i so agree with it. but naa ko questie:

how will i forget someone if i will always think of HIM?

and i really can't stop it.

nyah.

My Adopted Baby! :D

Click here to see kishyxd's virtual baby.

Don't believe easily ..

.. with d tongues of every guys!

LEND ME YOUR EYES TO READ THESE COUPLE OF WORDS:

This were some of the common lines of
them:

1) I will not leave you..that's a
promise.

2) I mean it when I say...

3) I'm inlove with you..I don't know..
it just happened..

4) I love you, more than what you
think.

5) Of course you'll have me forever...
ikaw pa! (duuuuuhh kaayo na style uy!)


....but despite all the words.. all
that lines..all that paCHAR2X
epek...only one thinG will surely
reveal... LIES!!!

....so sumo toh think about it... so
blah blah to hear those ewan nalang!
so so so CHURVA nalang!

....that's why,DON'T MAKE PROMISES
THAT YOU CAN'T KEEP....
...Don't try to fool someone's
innocent soul...
....have pity on them...shame on
you...find your conscience...

` from: eveneHeneve

http://profiles.friendster.com/heneve32mae

` i so agree with her. REALLY. you know what, i used to get JELLY with this girl. haha. i just wouldn't state the reason why. haha. it's so FUNNY really. :D

btw, GOODMORNING FOLKS! :D

<3

3< .hcum os yggep evol i

!yllaer

:D

:D

BABY PEGGY :D

Birthday: December 22, 2007

PROM

` next month would be JANUARY. a new YEAR of living, new year of CHALLENGES and all. and the most awaited PART of the JUNIORS will happen - the PROMNIGHT.

in our school, we could attend our PROM for two years. in the 3rd and 4th year. the 3rd and 4th year students are combined and everything will be soo, hmm? idk. haha. ya'knw, i'm so excited with the fact that i'm going to be a LADY, having a PARTNER all night long. haha. i hope my promPARTNER would be HANDSOME,GENTLEMAN, or in short - an IDEALPARTNER of each girls. hehe. nyah. i would be very LUCKY if i could be partnered with the PARTNER i'm dreaming of. haha. toingk. :D

instead of partners, i'm also excited wearing my GOWN for that night. i still don't have any idea on what to wear, what color and EVERYTHING. the most important thing is that, i could LOSE weight before the PROM. haha. (i'm working on it. :D)

but hey, the most AWAITED PART of every students - the PRACTICES. haha. i know there will be an ALLOTED time for the practices, so our classes are shortened and everyone will be happy. (haha, for sure.)

well, uh. i'm just excited to write this post because i'm GETTING EXCITED. haha. really. not to mention the payments, and everything. toingk. :D

whatever! anyhoo, thanks for bests. i'm FEELING GOOD now. hehe. i'm not sad anymore, i'm GETTING HAPPY. haha. mwah mwah! i love you blog. always and forever ..

:(

HAPPY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE! :D

` it isn't the eve of CMAS. but hey, i want this to end, like BOOM.

like that. nyah. i'm hurting and i can't let this feeling flow upto

next year. i want a HAPPY LIFE. no WORRIES and everything.

if i'll get through this, i PROMISE - I WON'T FALL IN LOVE AGAIN.

` i don't know why i still can't get over him.

since TIME proves me that it isn't worth it

to HOLD ON with my love for him. it's TOO MUCH.

soo MUCH. and i want this to be OVER.

` it's difficult though. ate fibe's right. LETTING GO of someone is

really HARD. superbly. i hope that i can do this,

and i hope that i could get the REAL HAPPINESS by letting him go. :(

IT'S REALLY HARD. and i don't wanna cry. it's not WORTH IT anymore.

OH MY GOD. HELP ME! I SO NEED YOU.

CMAS :D

` tonight will be the CMAS eve. and hey, i'm not EXCITED. HONEST! and PROMISE and SWEAR and WTE! hehe. i just don't feel like celebrating CMAS happily. nyah. :(

but in the other side, i'm happy. hehe. i have my new BABY PEGGY! my LIFE-SIZED teddy bear. nyaah. THANK YOU SO MUCH MOM for granting my wish. it's just my CMAS wish though. i'm so happy to have my baby. hehe. :D

i miss my friends so much, i miss school and i miss him. ya'knw, i have received a news from him. shocks. it's not GOOD and it's not BAD either. it's just that, it wasn't for me, it was for HER! YEAH. her, there's a GIRL involved in the story then. JEALOUS mode. maympa cla! darn. WTE. :(

i hope Kuya Kevin could write a song for me, about my ESTOOPED (haha) lovelife! SHECKS. oyeah. :D haha.

i want to join the LTS. but i'm sure mom willn't allow me, AGAIN. huhu. it will be held on MAPAWA for 4 days, i think. nyah. i know it will be fun, but unsaon taman, murag malabo gyud nga sugtan ta. darn. :P

anyhoo, i'm so PROUD of my self. haha. i was able to made the WEBSITE of my tita kel. and yeah, it was GOOD accdg to the PEOPLE. naks. haha. i hope i could make a WEBSITE of my own. hehe. nyah. :D

NERO PHOTOSHOP is a GREAT help for me. as i EDIT my pics, and so as making my BG. hehe. thanks NERO! u're one of the BEST. :D

i'm still not sure if i will RUN as the pres of SSA next school year. i'm so confused and i'm AFRAID. really. the fact that i THINK i'm not responsible and the like. nyah. WTE. i'm just afraid. :(

hmm. and yeah,AGAIN. i'm not excited for CMAS. hahahah. :D ( waiting for your call violet! :D )

okay. i need to go people!
MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL OF YOU! :D

12/20/07

` takels arrival ..

so excited to see her because of the JACKET. i so love her jacket, and she knows how much i wanted to USE that thingy. haha. toing. we went to the airport at around 3pm and waited there for her. we waited for almost 30 mins? i guess and the like. i felt like a bit hungry so when i saw her i told her that i want to EAT and she should buy me some food. haha. (demanding !!) good thing she bought a Lechon Manok for evryone. nyah. so i'm ok now. i'm not HUNGRY anymore. darn. :)

know what, i so miss my friends. as in, so much. shocks. i wanted to enjoy my vacation and i hope i will really be HAPPY and INSPIRED at the same time. nyah. :)

kuya macky is coming this 24th of december and i'll be happy for ate fibe as well. UYY. :)

and hey, i've got my pixes from bests na and it's all in my multiply. hehe. vanity strikes! nyah. :)

P.S: tito michael is really cute and RAQUELA is very lucky. toing. :)

WELCOME BACK MRS. HALL. I LOVE YOU. mwah! :D
i also miss VIOLET. and i will always LOVE HIM.

+_+

`` why do we need to SUFFER and take things for GRANTED to the one we LOVE?

it's simply because, WE LOVE THEM, and we'll do EVERYTHING just for them. :D

`` akala mo, TAMA ang mga ginagawa mo .. hindi mo masasabing TANGA ka, dahil AKALA mo masaya ka sa piling niya .. masyado kang PROUD dahil alam mo na hindi siya GAGO at kahit kailan hindi ka niya gagaguhin ..

ngunit, nang makita mo siyang may kasamang iba .. at MASAYA xa, sobra!!

saka mo lang maisip na:
"ANG TANGA KO PALA".

` made by:
Miss Kisha Manla :D
[ bleh :p ]

:D

Why do boys fall in love with girls?
(This was written by a guy)

1. Girls always smell good even if it
is just shampoo

2. The way their head always finds the
right spot on our shoulders

3. How cute they look when they sleep

4. The ease in which they fit into our
arms

5 . The way they kiss you and all of
a sudden everything in the world is
right

6 . How cute they are when they eat

7. The way it takes them hours to get
dressed but in
the end it's all worth while

8. Because they are always warm even
if it's -30
outside

9. They look good no matter what they
wear

10. The way they fish for compliments
even though you both know that you
think she's the most beautiful girl on
earth

1 1. How cute they are when they argue

12. The way her hand always finds
yours

13 . The way they smile

14. The way you feel after you see her
name on your cell after you just had a
big fight

15. The way they say "lets not fight
anymore"- even though you know that an
hour later...

16. The way they kiss you after a fight

17 . The way they kiss you after you
say "i love you"

18. Actually..The way they kiss you...

19. The way they fall into your arms
when they cry

20. The way they apologize after
crying over something thatis silly

21. The way they hit you and expect it
to hurt *i think every girl is guilty
of this! :)

22. Then the way they apologize when
it does hurt(even though we don't
admit it)

23. The way they say "i miss you"

24. The way you miss them

25. The way their tears make you want
to change the world so it doesn't hurt
her anymore.

Yet regardless if you love them, hate
them, wish they
would die or know that you would die
without them, it
matters not! Because once in your
life, whatever they
are to the world, they become
everything to you. When
you look them in the eyes, travel the
depths of their
souls and say a million things without
trace of sound,
you know that your own life is
inevitable consumed
within the rhythmic beats of her very
heart. We love
them for a million reasons, no paper
do it justice. It
is a thing of not the mind but the
heart.

A feeling.

Only felt.

12/19/07

` XMAS party ..

i'm happy but in the other hand, NOT.

HAPPY - 'coz, i ATTENDED the best XMAS party EVER !!
SAD - 'coz, i'll be missing my FRIENDS and i willn't have a chance to see them so SOON .. i'm also sad because i won't be able to see PEGGY for the next days. i'll be missing him. promise :(

yeah. i received a lot of gifts from my dearest friends. and also from MAM MANUS (xa nakabunot sko) .. i received two CUTE STUFFED TOYS and a green bracelet. THANKS MAM. really :)

i also received something from "my secret admirer" daw? nyah. i don't know that person but he/she gave me a hmm, UNISILVER bracelet? or anklet? either of the two. nyaah. THANKS TO YOU. whoever you are, i hope you willn't be expecting ANY in return. nyaah.

i received some KIKAY accessories from my co-FERN Almar (xa nakabunot sa ako sa amo barkada na bunot2) .. two BANGLES, heart necklace, bracelet and a CUTE PAYPAY. haha. really. it's very CUTE. super :)

then, hmm? i received a PEGGY key chain from BESTS. HAHA. thanks bests. ILOVEYOU MUCH.

yeah, it's 19 and i'm EXPECTING that something may happen. well, bests and I knows MORE about this things. haha. it involves the dates: 1, 7, 13, 19, 25, 31 of DECEMBER. nyaah. let's see what happens.

mom is still not around, it's already 7:05pm (my time). i don't know where she is now. haay. i miss her, A LOT. i wasn't able to see her this morning, because she left early. nyaah.

now, my nails are painted BLACK. the thing i have ever dreamt of CAME TRUE. haha. toing. thanks for ate GRACE for painting my nails NEATLY. i love you ate. hehe. :)

i'll be missing ate fibe and kuya henry. it will be a LONG vacation. darn.

i'm starting to plan for some things that i will in order to LOSE weight. haha. really. i wanted to transform a new KISHA next year. but i willn't actually CHANGE everything about me, just my appearance. :)

i saw KARA and she looks so pretty now. i miss that girl :')

well, uh. that's all folks. see you SOMEWHERE. hehe. i'll be back tomorrow. i hope i'll have a happy XMAS vacation :D

Advance Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year PEOPLE. mwah! :D

DAYBYDAY

i feel like it's the end of my world :(

well, uh yeah. REALLY, i'm currently so tired. i don't sleep that well and things are really not in PLACE. i think I CHANGED. really. i was acting like a PESSIMIST all the time. and i always think that i can't do a specific thing that i would make. haay. it made me SAD. i hope that i could bring back the OLD KISHA. the STRONG, FUNNY, LIL GIRL :)

anyway, yesterday was the birthday of takel and everyone was HAPPY for her. it was really INDEED a touching and MEMORABLE moment of her life. soooooo MUCH HAPPY for her. I LOVE YOU RAQUELA. and tito mike: CONTINUE BEIN CUTE. nyah. :)

today. TEACHER'S DAY. i sung with Ivan. and i feel so SORRY for him. he wasn't able to HIT the notes well. because, uh? of nervousness or WTE. but i know that he did his very BEST just for it. IVAN is GOOD. really. but he is really "BUGOY". he acts like a child and the like. haha. i treat him as my YOUNGER BROTHER. and oh, not to mention MARIDEL, a very PRETTY girl. she is one of my co-playmates. she's really FUNNY. right SISTER? haha. i enjoy the company with her and so as with Ate Razel, Kuya Jules, and Kuya Kev with the special participation of Ate Charmaine and Kuya Boiser in the choreography thingy. darn. tomorrow's the play. and i'm not nervous, i'm just AFRAID. isn't it the same? well. uh, WTE. nyah. :)

Godbless us for our CAROLING. i hope we'll win. our performance is just simple. REALLY SIMPLE. and hey, i still don't memorize the lyrics of the "Little Drummer Boy". nyah. it's so DUH. hehe. :)

PEGGY. i saw him. he smiled at me, i smiled at him. he sat beside me, WE WERE QUIET periodness :) i still love him though so much

and now, i have realized that ate Fibe's advices to me was ENTIRELY right. like:
"You can't please anybody"
"Nothing's permanent in this world"
"Time heals"

` it's so true. lavya ate fibs. thanks so much. :))

i want to REST, SLEEP and RELAX. shecks.
GOODNIGHT people.
i'm alone, ALL ALONE. mwah! :D

:(

masakit pag ipagtabuyan ka ng mahal mo papalayo sa'yo ..

hindi mo alam kung ano ang gagawin ..
kung ano ang dahilan ..
kung ano ang dapat isipin ..

at higit sa lahat,

hindi mo alam kung TAMA pa bang mahalin siya ..
dahil naisip mong SOBRA na. :'(

` i made this ..

DONT READ

dili ko ganahan sa ako day kay lechon kaayo. as in LECHE. waa. sorry i can't control myself. ngano imo man gyud ko ipaasa hah? ngano in-ana man? ngano HA? gi-unsa taka? samok man sad kau ko oi. ngano sa tanan guys sa world, ikaw man gyud ang gipa ila-ila sko? i want a HAPPY life. not a MISERABLE one. yeah,i admit .. i still LOVE YOU. but what you're showing to me isn't right. well, wla man pud ko karapatan na mag control sa imong life. ok. WTE. then, SORRY kau hah kung giaabot pko sa imong life. kay ako pud, nagSISI gyud ko. kabalo ko nasakitan taka, SORRY hah. tao rako. and uh,unta. na feel pud nmo nga NASAKITAN ko. wala lng. i-feel lang. mao ra. ambot. i don't want you to read this because for sure, you will react. mao ra. gusto ko muhilak, but my tears WON'T fall eh. siguro na feel na niya nga dili na jud ka WORTH na hilakan. well, tama pud ako eyes. gikapoy naman gud ko .. pro uh,don't think nga ikaw ang SALA hah, just think that it's my PROBLEM. ako ang problema dre DILI IKAW. ok? kanus-a paba nko ka malimtan? nga as in mu fade na akong feelings sa imo? kay murag feeling nko, over na as in OVER. fine,ate fibe's right. unsa to ate? TIME HEALS? murag in-ana to .. so i believe na mawala ra lge ni. na sobraan lng cguro ko ka inlove sa imo? sakto bana? naah. well. OK na. sakto na ni kay OA na kau. ambot, sorry hah. kung wla ka kasabot.

WLA KOY LALAKE. DLI KO FLIRT. DLI KO IN-ANA. DECENTE KO NGA TAO KABALO KO KUNG ASA KO MULUGAR.
so mao rana. ( tawa sko hah HEHE)

BYYYYYYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

12/12/07

` a fine and NORMAL day :)

haha. i was really confused in the first place on what to WEAR. darn. it took me, for about, uh? 1 hour and 15 mins? .. to choose what will i wear. and yeah, finally. it turn out to be FINE. i know, some people would think i'm a COLLEGE student. nyah. DARN. it's bad. haha. :)

we started to practice for our caroling contest and i hope everything will turn out to be FINE. it seems like we lack UNITY. and it is a very NEW thing for me. we're not like that before. it's just that, some of my classmates would always CONTRADICT with some other things. and we should work TOGETHER for a FAIR practices. nyaah. :)

i'm also uhh? LOADED? nyah. YEAH. so many things to do then. PROJECTS, ASSIGNMENTS, SPECIAL QUIZZES, MUSICALE PLAY, CAROLING CONTESTS, GIFTS, OUTFIT, WEDDING PRACTICES, and darn .. lovelife? haha. NO,NO. i shouldn't think of it, as of now .. it seems like PEOPLE are BUSY with their own business. :)

i'm excited to answer ate fibe's survey in FS. haha. and oh yeah, JIM is Nicholas in our musicale play, and i'm ALICE. we're good friends and i always understand him. i love the story. so much. so HAPPY to work with Jim, Maridel, and Ivan and also to Kuya Jules and to OTHERS. haha. i'm having fun even though, i can't stop worrying ABOUT MYSELF. haha. :)

they will arrive tomorrow. ate Lexie and tita Duls. :) yeyeah. i'll be one of the pips who'll fetch them. WE WILL NOT GO TO SCHOOL TOMORROW. SSSH. strike eh. haha. :)

i'm also happy for i was able to make some uh, quotes? yeah. haha. here are they:

`` sometimes, i want to be alone. for me to remember all the fun things that had happened in the past. but later, i realized, it's so wrong to REMINISCE, most especially if you already knew that, those memories will not be back again ..

`` i gave a big part of my heart to him. but it seems like he doesn't notice it and it hurts to know that he couldn't give it back to me in return ..

`` when i saw you, and you seem so busy and HAPPY. that completes the reason for me to stop expecting. i know you'll NEVER be back in my heart, where you used to be ..

`` he always say, he's still there. but i can't even FEEL his presence. though, seein' him HAPPY, fill the emptiness of my heart ..

`` a simple HELLO means a lot to me, most especially if you're the sender. so, take care 'coz i ALWAYS care.

`` i don't know why i'm like this,
i don't know why you are like that,
i don't know why those things happen,
the only thing i know is that, I LOVE YOU.

~ nyah. that's all. i hope it's OK and GOOD to hear? nyah. haha. :)

ok nyah. i need to GO. i need to make my PROJECT first. BYEBYE. :P

12/11/07

` rainy day..

rain fell AGAIN from the skies. and it made my rubber shoes to get DIRTY. darn. anyhoo, i ENJOYED my day. bein with my friends and bein with EVERYONE. haha. it was a GOOD day to start of, because i received a msg from him. but duh, it isn't that impt. well, ok. uh, i'm just happy. :)

MATH. my quiz score is 40/45. nyaah. i'm kinda happy for it .. :)

PHYSICS and ENGLISH (time). i wanna sleep. i'm sleepy that times and i don't understand some of the lessons in English. but that's alright, i got 47/50 in our quiz. nyaah. TSAMBA lang yun. :)

CHEM. it was quite fun, guessing ELEMENTS and the like. nyaah. Mrs. Manus is really a GOOD teacher. :)

PE. i was OUTSIDE the room when PE time strikes. i wasn't able to wear my casual attire because i didn't brought any. :)

FILIPINO. yaaho. no class. :)

i'm quite excited for the upcoming musicale play this Dec18, i'm ALICE and i'm one of the main characters. i hope it will be FUN to bond with my co-playmates. haha. :)

nyaah. i saw him in the taxi. akong mata gyud. grabe na. toing. :)

i'm really feeling LAZY this times. as in. but still HAPPY, no class on THURSDAY. yey.

byebye. mwuah. :P

12/10/07

` bored.boring.BOREDOM.

nyaah. today. i just stayed at home for the WHOLE DAY. as in, yeah, WHOLE DAY. i never had a chance to GO OUT and see my neighbors or whatever. my stupid LAZY ass doesn't want to MOVE that much, because i have my PERIOD. yeah, it's so DARN. i hate it. but at least, it came before the wedding of my tita. and ARF, it's coming near. i'm so excited, i just can't hide it. haha.

this thursday, tita dulce and ate lexie will be coming back here. GEE, i wanna see them both, and i'm so excited to BOND with my BEYB [ lexie ]. that's what we call each other. haha. i so miss them.

oh, tomorrow's another day. another day of LESSONS, of INTRIGUES, of NUMBERS, LETTERS and ofcourse, CRUSHES. haha. toing. btw, i'm so TIRED. i don't want to go to school na. i wanna spend my vacation then. haha. :)

i'm so happy, mom allowed me to join KPA this summer. nyoinks. i'll consult Kaye first para dungan mi. hehe. i just love the KPA people. i want to bond with them and ofcourse, to learn new DANCES. haha. i so love dancing, and i also MISS dancing. huhu. it's been awhile since i last DANCED and showed what i got in the dance floor.HAHA. WTE.

ok.ok. i hope our teachers will give us the time to practice for our upcoming CAROLING CONTEST. i hope the classes will be IRREGULAR and everything. :)

darn. the teacher's day will be on DEC17. it's so MATAGAL ah. as in. but it's okay, at least we willn't have CLASSES that day again. YAHHO. toingks. :)

simbang gabi days is coming. i'm confused on how to BUDGET my time coz we still need to go to school in some of the days in simbang gabi. darn. dili nalang kaha mi matulog ba? nyaah.

and NOW, the end is near and so i face the final curtain. BLABLA. HAHAHA.

btw, anyhoo, would like to thank ATE FIBE for the quotes she has given me. it's more than 1000 i think. i'm enjoying reading those quotes. haha. toingks. and also to KUYA HENRY for the bg and banner and for editing my pixes, having sum ROSY CHEEKS then. haha. i SO LOVE IT. thanks to the both of you. you're such a nice KUYA AND ATE to me. char. hehe. MWUAH. :)

i miss you.oyeah. YOU.ok. bye. haha. :)

QUOTES

this aren't just an ordinary quotes, i tell you, i can RELATE. darn. credits to Ate Fibz. thanks for sharing. :)

` it's hard to go on living while loving someone secretly,

it's hard to see the one you love so happy with someone else.

but you know,

what's the most painful thing about hiding love?

IT NEVER FADES.

` i learned to love "someone" with all my life,

but there came a point when i got tired,

not of loving but of sacrificing all that i have.

then a thought came to my mind,

i have given EVERYTHING but have received nothing but

PAIN & TEARS in return.

is this enough to prove that i really love that person?

or is it a sign telling me to STOP sacrificing,

and learn to love myself a little more?

haay. :')

12/9/07

` coco bay to the rescue :)

when i woke up at around 7 or 8, i wasn't that excited to swim and visit again CocoBay. but then, when time passes by, i was really uh, craving for the place. it was darn crazy but i really wore my SEXIEST shorts. well, i wasn't shy at all, because i know it fits me. darn. haha. WTE. :)

it was so happy to be with my cousins again, bond and swim with them. we were really like crazy in the pool. and my bro is really IRRITATING. so much. darn. but it's ok, i still enjoyed. nyaah. i really enjoyed taking some pictures using Tito Mic's digicam and so as our digicam. but, our digicam was acting like a KJ. so darn. then, afterwards, the rain fell from the sky and it was really nice watching it on the sea. REALLY. it's good for lovers. haha. i told ate fibz about that, i text her. :)

and now, i'm really TIRED. but i can't sleep. nyaah. i just finished transferring the pixes here in the pc to the CD. because our PC will be reformat tomorrow. and yeah, BYEBYE files. :)

ok.ok. i'm confused with my lovelife. it's DARN. but i shouldn't mind it. I SHOULDN'T.

nyah. i'll be checking my FS now. BUH-BYE. :)

HAHA

COCO BAY, I'm coming :)

nyaah. i'm so excited. REALLY. haha. :)

12/8/07

MOOD: relieved and HAPPY :)

ate fibe, kuya henry, and my dearest FERNS and FRIENDS -- thankyou so much for bein there. thankyou so much for the COMFORT and for understanding me. really. i just realized how NICE my life is with you GUYS around me. THANKYOU SO MUCH, FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART. :)

wee. anyway, this has been a gloomy day for me. even if i'm happy, i feel like there is something wrong?hmm. something missing? and the like. but i don't know what it is. [nyah.maybe i know.but i'm afraid to share with you dearies.haha] uh,yeah. i ate some of the chocolates, and it's really DELICIOUS. darn. tita kel's wedding is COMING, i need to watch out my INTAKE OF FOODS. haha. :)

yeyeah. we watched, PASUKOB just this afternoon with my cousin - Catherine. nyaah. i have discovered so many things about her then, she talk A LOT. really. most especially about her LOVELIFE. and yeah,i still DO LISTEN. it's interesting anyway. but,we're just CLOSE. that's a FOREVER FACT. i love to be with her because i UNDERSTAND her and she also UNDERSTAND me. haha. nyaah. anyway, the movie isn't that FINE. hmm? because the story was COMMON. i mean it was derived from some of the LOCAL MOVIES and they revived it. but, it was a bit CORNY. nyaah. not a BIT, but REALLY corny. haha. though, it's alright. i still enjoyed watching the TRAILERS. hahaha. DARN. :)

and now. back in my usual doing. NET-NET-NET. well, i could net all i can because my mom can't open her YM because of the STUPID VIRUS - BRONTOK. it's really darn. our PC will be reformat for the next few days so i willn't be able to NET. i'll be missing writing here, open my FS & Multiply. but my tita said that it wouldn't take long. still, i can't ASSURE. nyaah. :)

orayt. so TOMORROW, COCO BAY ESCAPADE! we'll be going there tomorrow and SWIM. darn. i miss diving and swimming in the POOL. and i also miss Coco bay. well, i'm just so EXCITED. haha. i'll be with my relatives. and we'll enjoy the waters, for sure. :)

ate lekssy and tita dulce are coming. i'm so excited. :)

btw, need to EAT guys. mwuah. SAYONARA.

P.S [i'm still confused if there will be classes on monday] hmm.

<3

`` If you love something, set it free. If it comes back, it was, and always will be yours. If it never returns, it was never yours to begin with.

`` Gravitation is not responsible for people falling in love.

`` True love does not come by finding the perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.

http://www.heartquotes.net/Love.html

12/7/07

` the day of TEARS..

i have cried A LOT. a LOT than you have ever expected. i was sooo darn sad .. because i can't carry the things that BOTHERS me the most. you could think that i'am a HAPPY,STRONG girl, but no .. i'm definitely weak. when i started to cry, i don't know how to end it. feeling so so WEAK && SAD. and i always think that it would be my time to go back in my REAL world.

though, my day isn't that sad. i was still happy, A BIT. thinking that my dearest friends doesn't want me to be SAD and cry all the time. i put some small SMILE in my face and i faced the reality of being an ordinary SCHOOLGIRL. orayt.orayt. so i had a lot of time with my friends later in the afternoon. we bond, but not that much, because i was chatting with ate Josh. hehe. so,i left kuya henry,bests and others to have their own world first .. nyah. then that's it. we discussed a lot of things and i always dream to be a part of KPA. darn. i so love dancing. but idk. mom wouldn't ALLOW me, for sure. SUMO na kau. darn.

then, oh. our special quiz in math .. err. they said it's hard,but darn. it's quite hard. it's A BIT easy. haha. well,i hope i could get a good score, also with our quiz in eco, it was a bit hard memorizing the things about GLOBALIZATION. nyaah. our ST is fun. she's one of the best.

ok. i admit, i'm kinda happy, for i saw him. AT LAST. darn. it's been a long time. nyaaah. okay. let's MOVE ON. :)

tito michael gave me a christmas present.MONEY. rawr. haha. i could buy what i want. well, azei. i wanna watch a movie. well, i think ate kk and i will watch pasukob tomorrow. we'll just see. hmmm. i'm so excited for COCO BAY. we'll be going there this Sunday, and we'll swim swim and swim all we can. nyaaah. :)

ate fibe knows PEGGY na, as well as kuya henry. let's keep it a, secret. orayt? hehe.

i want to SHOUT as in SHOUT everything i CAN. :\

i'm currently SAD. ciao. :'(

12/6/07

` the day of FOODS, e.g. CHOCOLATES and everything ..

well, today's the birthday of my daddy and yeah, this afternoon we went to Peking house for we tried the Snack all you can there. darn. the foods are really delicious and uh, it made me felt so bloated. haha. i'm so into foods today. i need to slow down my intake of foods. darn. :)

anyhoo, speaking of CHOCOLATES, i have A LOT. nyaah. want some? after we ate, we went to Mulberry to fetch the choco's Tito Mike will give to us .. so, me and ate KK went there with uh, very hmm? i can't describe. haha. we were really having fun touring around kets and we always laugh. darn. she's the best, i tell you. you'll never get bored. because she will always talk to you and everything. :)

and now .. well, i mean tomorrow. i need to catch up so many things. i need to take up my special quiz in Math, and i so hope that it will be easy. darn. we also have our quiz tomorrow in Eco. good thing i was able to study this morning so i willn't have a hard time to review this evening. azei. haha. so, GOODLUCK and GODBLESS. ernk. :P

i hope i could approach easily to my dearest friends tomorrow. most especially to SOMEONE. really. GOD, please help me understand them. well, i know it's my duty as her friend. :)

and you know, i so miss someone, sooo BADLY. darn. x(

my mom is in the state of getting out of her mood AGAIN. rawr.

i so miss our school and my dearest classmates, friends and EVERYTHING. see you all tomorrow.

orayt, daddy. HAPPY BIRTHDAY. i love you ALWAYS. mwuah. :)

need to goo .. lotsacare :)

PAPA :')

`` even though i can't see, reach, touch, hear, see you ..
i could hardly FEEL you father ..

`` i know you are always at my side,
guiding me in the RIGHT path ..
and i'm so glad you're still here for me dad ..

`` you know who I'am
and i'm very sorry for the things that i've done unto you,
even though IT's too late ..

`` i'm still HAPPY ,for YOU are my REAL father ..

`` the father that all children would DREAM of.

`` thankyou dad for EVERYTHING.

`` i wasn't able to prove to you that 'm the BEST DAUGHTER in your eyes ..

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH DAD.
Saying goodbye to you isn't an easy thing ..

i hope you're happy living with GOD in heaven.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA! I MISS YOU SO MUCH. SO SO MUCH. :')

I LOVE YOU..

12/5/07

tito mike is here in CDO now. so excited to see him again. and so as my tita RAQUELA. i miss that girl. so much. now, i'm so looking forward on seeing him and her later. haha. :)

well, uh, this day is so TIRING, full of INTRIGUES (?), happy moments, and MISUNDERSTANDINGS. yeah.i know it's normal. and i don't take seriously.

to start the day of, we went to the old gate of our school because me and my other friends were intrigued by what they call GHOSTS over there. and darn, i don't know. it's not a nice feeling to go there most especially if it's dark..

SLEEPING HANDSOME. well, i just read the pocket book. and that sleeping thingy was made by NAZI dearie. haha. because, oh. it's a very long story. i tell you ..

then, we cleaned over our room, it's so WIDE. and it's very fun. really. we enjoyed cleaning with the waters we step on, scrubbing and wiping the floor, walls and everything. yeah. i'm so proud, our room was really clean afterwards. we were all busy this morning, actually. haha. :)

KETS to the rescue. me and my dearest friends went to kets, for the very first time in December. haha. it's a nice feeling to be with your best budds. i'm always with Bests and Donnie - the LOVETEAM. haha. though, we call ourselves the JDK. darn, so obvious why. haha. then sometimes, JJAMPPONG (correct?) well. it's the favorite (?) food of donat. haha. so nice to be with them, to be there MANAGER. azeeei. haha. i'm the loveteam's BRIDGE. darn. anywoots, i can't forget the word DEJAVU. hahaha. reaallllyy. :)

my horoscope for this day goes like this: You are the center of the action, so get ready for a lot of attention and power. whaaat? hahaha. i don't think so. i don't even know if i the people always look at me. well, KEBS. haha. darn. and also this: And the folks who encounter you for the first time today are asking each other 'who is THAT?' waw. bukad sad my LIVER. hahaha. darn. this is a very big JOKE people. this horoscope is sponsored by: FRIENDSTER. :) would I believe? or not? :)

ok. ok. i can feel the spirit of christmas now. as in NOW. i want to REST. :P

but hey, i'ma bit confused, with one of my friends. idk. idk. REALLY. i hope i could understand things ASAP.

will i just dump my feelings? or let it stay? SHOCKS. :)

nyaaah. i will be absent tomorrow, because it's DAD's birthday. we'll be going to the cemetery and eat afterwards. i'm planning to study for our exam in ECO and my special QUIZ in math tomorrow. for i will take those quiz this FRIDAY.

and hey, i'm so excited for something. guess what? wee .. CHOCOLATES. :P

ok guys. need to GOOOOO. till tomorrow. MWUAH.

12/4/07

` the day of unpredictable moments ..

to start the day off, i was a bit TIRED. yeah, because i slept at around 11pm waiting for my stomache to digest all the foods i have eaten the other day. it was quite a DARN thing. haha. well, whatever. anyhoo, tito mike just arrived in manila this morning, and i'm sure RAQUELA is so happy about it. nyaah. (raquela is my BEAUTIFUL aunt, mom's sis). her wedding will be this Sunday and i'm soo looking forward about it. so excited to WALK down the aisle. as if i'm the bride. waaa. then who's my groom? well. idk. ;p

well. let's look forward. hmm? i suffered from headache the whole morning. and it is really BAD. as in. i always feel like i want to sleep and i don't want to listen any of the teacher's discussion. but, the good thing is, our class is IRREGULAR. due to the upcoming accreditation of the school this coming Thursday. (dad's bday) .. i hope MPSC will be MUST soon. well, i feel like, it's hmm. nothing. darn.

i'm so happy. we got 20/20 in our play in english. a big congratulation to JADE and CHRISTINE for a JOB well done. haha. and also to me noh! being a narrator isn't an easy thing. REALLY. haha :)

tomorrow will be a tiring day, for sure. we will have our general cleaning for our assigned places. and darn, we were assigned in our own CLASSROOM. as in in our four-walled BIG (?) and HOT classroom. really. well, i hope i'll be doing fine tomorrow. nyaaah. no headaches and no HEARTACHES anymore. huhu. x(

nyaah. i'm so sorry for someone. really. don't wanna talk about it because it isn't that deep.

i want to see kuya henry then. i missed him. as well as ate fibz. and all the people in the world. haha. :)

i'm so excited for next week's event. yahooooo! LTS? oh, it bothers me. if i'll join or not. i want to, but for sure my mom wouldn't want me to join. so the best thing to do is, BEHAVE. ;p

mom is so LOUD. really. she always shouts and iDK. darn. it irritates my precious ear. char. haha. :)

i love my friends and i need to accept them for who they are.

oh. ok. i need to gooooo. bye.

12/3/07

today is Ate Lekssy's birthday. :) she's one of my CLOSEST cousin. and she lives in Olongapo. :) we're too far from each other, that's why when she is here, we always bond and do all the things that we want to do. hehe. i'm so excited. i'll be seeing her next week and yeah. SO EXCITED. :)

today is a FINE day with a WEAK mood. i don't feel like going to school and as well as to TALK a lot. i want to be silent, keep my mouth of and find some place that is very COLD. because, darn. our classroom is really HOT. so HOT than you have ever expected. really.

early this morning, we saw some flower vendors outside our premises, so uh. i thought today is the celebration of the teacher's day. so we have been so excited because we thought that we willn't have any class in the morning. but then, we are terribly WRONG. it isn't the teachers day yet, according to some of the teachers. darn. soooo BAD.

we saw Mrs. Mañus this morning. she's back in the school now. really. she's now sexy. super SEXY than you have ever expected dearies. hehe. and she looks so PRETTY and inspired with her looks. well, i do believe it's because of her new born baby CHLOE (i don't know if that's the real spelling). the baby is really CUTE. had a chance to see the baby this afternoon together with her HANDSOME dad and PRETTY mom. hehe. :)

Joy is back in the group now. i'm so HAPPY :)

you know what, i'm really hoping to see someone. but GOD doesn't want me to meet that person. so SAD. though, it's alright. but hey, have some message to someone:

so, unsa man? in-ani nalang? kalimtanay nalang? okay.FINE.

okay okay. i'm ok now. i hate our math lesson this morning. i didn't understand the things about TRIGO. darn. need to review later for we will have a quiz tomorrow. KAPOY.

so, tomorrow, we will have a play in english and i'am the NARRATIVE (haha. according to DONAT). well, my job is quite easy. and i'm not nervous either. :) and we'll also wear our casuals tomorrow, AGAIN. i really don't know what to wear. really. hate it.

and my tita will go to Manila tomorrow. to meet her HUSBAND-to-BE tito Mic. so excited to see him. really. well, my father's bday is coming .. :)

i was really crazy in our eco this afternoon. really. don't wanna share it because it's DARN YUCK. to the maxx.

ok.ok. need to go. buhbye :)

:)

tomorrow. our regular class AGAIN starts. i don't know if i want to listen in our next lessons. because, i feel like, i want to spend my X'MAS vacation NOW. as in NOW. i'm so excited for Christmas to come as well as the New Year's day. but i know, it willn't be easy facing these special part of every year's happening, because we aren't COMPLETE. my dad isn't here now, and this would be the first Christmas of mine without him at my side. i don't know what i will feel if ever, Christmas day strikes. well, the death of my dad leaves a very BIG pain in my heart. i love him so much. x(

anyhoo. i'm a bit happy for Ate Fibe helped me face my problem. because of her experiences, i realized on what's the best thing to do if ever i will encounter a specific problem again. thank you so much Ate Fibz. you helped me A LOT. really, a LOT. you're really the BEST :)

i don't know if i'm excited to face my day tomorrow. nyaah. many things had happened this day. and i don't know EVERYTHING. rawr. i always say I DON'T KNOW because I REALLY DON'T KNOW. and that's for REAL. nyaah.

` i saw someone yesterday and made a big impact on my HEART. i missed him. i hope i could always see him. and i HOPE, i could decide what's best for my HEART and for some things as well. :)

oreo isn't in a good mood because her parents don't want her to join their christmas party. well, i'm also confused on what to do. so i adviced her to tell her parents that their PARTY is compulsory and if she will not attend, her STAT and RESEARCH grade will be lowered. shocks. i'm so bad. hahaha. nyaah. :)

i saw tita Jeanie this afternoon and she looks so pretty, beautiful && GORGEOUS. really. i so love her look then. i want to be like her. but darn, i'm contented on who I'AM. :)

i want to be part of CHUY barkada. really. i want to be a host sooooon. :) whew.

yeah. things goooo smoothly and mom and I aren't talking yet .. there will really come a time for us. well, GOODBYE people. :)

duh

i don't understand someone. and i feel so bothered then. why is SHE like that? .. omg. i don't know what is the right thing to do when i'll be facing this thing again .. because it hurts. even though, SHE is like that, SHE will remain special to me. oh LORD, help me to understand this thing .. it drives me crazy. over crazy!!

currently texting with Ate Fibz, and i'm telling her what my problem is .. i hope she could help me. i wanna be happy. i wanna live my life to the fullest ..

` sometimes .. i thought, suicide is the best thing. but it's wrong.

` Survey :)

1. WHAT MADE YOU SMILE TODAY?
• Lang2. She's really funny though.

2. DO YOU KNOW THAT TO LOVE IS ALSO TO
LET GO?
• I kinda agre. But it depends upon the person's situation. If you're hurting and you feel like it's not worth fighting for, then let go. Well, there are still so many reasons, and it all depends upon YOU.

3. ARE YOU IN LOVE?
• Yes, seriously. xD

4. ARE YOU IN A RELATIONSHIP?
• No, and i still don't want to.

5. DO YOU LOVE YOUR BEST FRIEND/S?
• Ahuh. More than I love myself.

6. WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?
• None. I turned off the speakers, sakit na ako dalunggan. Hehe. xD

7. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SONG AT THE
MOMENT?
• Come What May - Faith Cuneta.

8. WHAT ARE YOUR BIGGEST FEAR/S?
• Losing my loved ones.

9. WRITE DOWN NAMES OF IMPORTANT
FRIENDS
• Darn. They're so many to mention. Really! They know who they are. xD

10. DO YOU HAVE EX GIRLFRIENDS/B OYFRIENDS?
• No. I never had any bf since birth.

11. DO YOU LIKE TO WATCH THE SUNSET
WITH YOUR LOVE?
• Sure. But, wala pa xa na happen. Ma happen pa. UNTA! ;p

12 . WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE BOOK?
• Going Home, The Nursing Thingy, Sweet Valley University. xD

13. WHAT CAR YOU WISH TO DRIVE?
• Kanang cute and bagay sa ako. :)

14. HAVE YOU EVER LOVED YOUR OWN BEST
FRIEND?
• I love my bestfriends.

15. DO YOU THINK BREAK-UPS SUCK?
• I don't know yet. xD

16. TELL ME AN IMPORTANT THING ABOUT
YOURSELF:
• I don't like people who are too loud. [ ako ra nakasabot sa deep meaning anah. haha ]

17. WHAT SPORTS DO YOU LIKE?
• Badminton, Volleyball and the like. xD

18 . ARE YOU BORED?
• Not that much.

19. DO YOU WANNA GO BACK TO THE PAST?
• NO.

20. DO YOU HAVE BEST FRIENDS FROM THE
OPPOSITE SEX?
• Yep. xD

21. NAME OF YOUR PETS?
• Jang2, Mimi.

22. WHAT COLORS DO YOU LIKE?
• Pink, Blue, Black, White. xD

23. DO YOU LIKE TO DRINK BEER UNTIL
YOU GET DRUNK?
• I don't like alcoholic beverages!

24. DO YOU HAVE IMPORTANT THINGS TO
SAY TO SOMEONE?
• Yeah. Heyya there, sorry and thank you. xD

25. WHAT DO YOU DO FOR FUN?
• Chat with my friends, as in TALK. Hehe. And net. xD

26. LOVE SOMEONE A LOT?
• Not just a LOT, SO SO SO SO MUCH! Darn.

27. ARE YOU SLEEPY NOW?
• No. Bag-o lang ko kamata.

28. IF YOU HAD A CHANCE TO SAY "I
MISS YOU", TO WHOM WOULD THAT BE?
• Shocks, to him. x(

c",)

Trivia:

I don't eat my dinner :)
and mom is always scolding me. darn? ..

I'm always bothered if i can't open my FS account.
because, i'm addicted to FS already.

I love it when Kuya Henry tells me something :)
'coz it's interesting .. really!

I miss Ate Lekssy x)
and all our cam whooring moments .. she loves to tell stories about her boylets ..

I'm starting to love STUFFED TOYS ;p
teddy bears will do .. ( give me some haha )

I love to write some so-called poems
that relates my love life and so as my life ..

I love to drink water :)
the best ..

I exercise, once a year
haha .. yeah .. during SCI-RACE .. that's why i'm always grabbing the opportunity to be one of the watchers .. :)

I hate guys who are so PAPANSIN
really ..

Many people knows my name
but i don't know them ..

Friends are the best medicine :)
right? ..

I'm reading pocket books :)
the stories are cute ..

My friends don't text me if i don't text them
yess .. i always text first .. darn ..

I'm always feel sad
when someone tells their opinion about him ..

I'm really addicted to Sam Concepcion
my friends knows about it ..

My friends always say that i should move on
but i can't .. darn ..

I always dream to be a successful singer
someday .. for my future ..

Dali rko masuko
yeah ..

I don't wanna be judged
but i judge other people .. haha ..

I'm irritated with all the things that i don't want to see :)
well .. who likes??

I'm a CHOCOHOLIC ;p
i want some .. rawr ..

I like Marian
such a gorgeous lady ..

I'm starting to love BLUE :]
because it's so cool to look at .. right?

Part 1` sa ni .. i'll post another trivia about me, SOON .. haha ..
oink oink :p

SHY

hao people. it seems like i wanna post many things in my blog today. because, i think, i'm in the mood. but darn, not that much. i'm so tired. sci-race is such a nice exercise thing for me but it's over tiring, really. i just can't seem to do what i want. because, my feet aches. darn, what's the connection? anyhoo, i saw someone. and i felt shy. nyaah. that's why i was able to publish another thought, which was before this thing. rawr. it's really really darn. haha. i don't know how will i express what i feel at this moment. and i also don't know the reason why. wala man jud ko kabalo kung ngano gyud. really!

tomorrow, yeah. tomorrow will be so tiring again. for sure, it will be the second part of the sci-race and i'm thinking if i'll continue my job? well. shocks. i still don't know yet. we also have our quiz for Chem tomorrow. well, i'm not nervous, coz i know it will be easy. haha. yucks! baga kaayo ko ug leps. nyaaah.

anywoots, ate fibe's birthday is coming .. i hope her eyes will be okay na. ;p

ciao people. i'm TIRED.
` shy girl.

A thought?

When you look at me
I always feel shy
and I don't know why
I'm afraid to melt,
drowning with your sweetest smile
And that would always be in my mind
Even though I act as totally blind
I'm afraid to see you
Knowing that the past willn't be back forever more
and It hurts even more
I wanna be happy, but I can't
For, it seems like somebody is missing
and I guess, its you.

Darn Things

SCI-MATH. it's happening tomorrow. oyeah. and i'm not at all excited. because of my t-shirt. really! shocks. my new shirt is size SMALL but then it's darn big for me. i hate it! i look like a pig. nyaah. idk how to deal with it tomorrow. so darrnn. i'm excited for sci race actually, A BIT ;p

and hey, it's also not nice to know that we'll have a class on Physics tomorrow. it's very DUH. as in. we thought that we dont have any classes for 3 CONSECUTIVE DAYS!! but darn. we are just shocked that Mam Bacarrisas will meet us tomorrow 7:30 in the morning. i thought, i could go to school late, but i can't. rawr.

anyhoo, it's very very duh. as in. somebody viewed my profile in friendster and it really had made a big impact on me. really!! i'm really shocked, but then NERVOUS. and I DON'T KNOW the reason why i feel that why. darn.

i badly miss someone .. i wanted to see that person .. hay.